dedra14's Journal

I am exactly 1 week away from surgery and am completely at peace about it. Many people I know don't understand it, but since the pain started 2 months ago, I thought it might come to this. Do I know the outcome of the surgery? Of course not, but I do know that I am a child of God whose eternal outcome is certain no matter my physical outcome.

Most don't understand why I can have or even want a hysterectomy and don't have any children. I've never wanted children. I don't know why this society tries to dictate happiness. I'm happily single and childless and the fact is, my reproductive system has been a source of great pain and distress for over 15 years. I just pray that I'm not trading one problem for another, but will be relieved that I made a step toward good health. 

My biggest battle is not to stress out my last week at work. I will be out several weeks and am trying to take care of everything so others will know what to do in my absence. My prayer is that others will see my peace, and when learning what I've been going through, will ask me how I've maintained calm and joyfullness even in the midst of my pain and uncertainty. I would be overjoyed if this experience can somehow lead an unsaved soul to Christ.

Please let me know if I can assist you, especially if you're facing surgery.