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Andra 
She's been on my mind alot lately. I still get teary eyed thinking about her, and looking at her photos.
I think about how Madyson and Nolan would be growing up together, and playing with their toys. All the things that should of been!
Madyson was one month and one day when she passed, and Nolan is almost one month old, and I am terrified. I think my mind will be more at ease once we get through the one month and one day mark. Nolan will be one month and one day on the 19.
I hate that I live in constant fear of something happening. I have to keep telling myself he will be ok, but that fear just seems to over ride it everytime.
I am constantly checking on him when he sleeps. Even when I am holding him.
I think having anxiety already doesnt help either.
No matter how much times go on, I will always think of Madyson, and what her and Nolan would be doing, growing up together, etc.
I hate the should of, would of beens!
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This is the hardest part of not having our babies, the knowing what should have been. Enjoy Nolan and love everything that he does. Have faith that all will be okay. Lots of love your way.
mommyoflily
Yes you will always think of her, she was a part of your life. Nolan is one loved little man, try and enjoy every second without worrying so much....I know easier said than done. Thinking of you!
TRENTONLEEMOM
Yup that part sucks!!!!! I just wish things were different for all of us here!!! So Nolan is 1 month and a day younger than Marissa, how cool is that!!! Try not to take the time with Nolan for granted by worrying about what ifs....it is soooooo hard not to i know, but enjoy him
NickNicksmommykitkat
I know, I hate it too. I am sorry that you are having a hard time. HUGS to you...
tasiaR