Journal Entry for July 7, 2007
July 7, 2007 3:16pm
Rec'd a letter from my mom a few days ago. I've not talked to her in months. In fact, I've cut her off. Too much hurt …
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Journal Entry for June 20, 2007
June 20, 2007 2:40am
Tomorrow, uh today, is my 15th anniversary with my husband. Not sure how it will go, but I'll wait and see. Don't really know …
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Journal Entry for June 13, 2007
June 13, 2007 1:16pm
Today as well as yesterday, I've really begun to focus on fitness, health and diet. I've been dabbling in this for the last …
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Journal Entry for June 11, 2007
June 11, 2007 8:50pm
I came home today after spending almost two days away from my husband with my youngest at a local hotel just to get some space and think. …
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Journal Entry for June 7, 2007
June 7, 2007 3:12pm
Hubby and I had it out about the policing and prison of my own home. It's to the point he knows that I no longer want to be around him, …
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Close Alcoholism
I have been an alcoholic for a few years. Recently went through detox, and then relapsed for 10 days. Because I had started recovery, I was able to catch the downward spiral and get back into recovery. Just trying to live each day at a time now and ignore the triggers still tugging at me.
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Too Soon to Tell
- Fairly new to this and need to continue working on it.
- AA Meetings Working / Worked
- Helpful. Love the in-person meetings and the fact that they can be closed or open. I've also found meetings on-line for days in need when I can't go to a meeting.
- Detox Not Working
- It was hell, to be blunt. Only 6% were addicts, the others had severe mental disorders. It was jail frankly. Got more out of AA meetings than anything there. Bad choice.
- Sleep Working / Worked
- Drank to sleep, didn't believe that quitting would help fix that. It took a couple of weeks and now I'm back to a pretty regular schedule. Yay!
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Very helpful. Esp. good when dual diagnosis (alcohol with depression or bi-polar). Classes with just depression not beneficial. Switched clinics and it's been better.
- Couples Counseling Working / Worked
- it was working and helping with our communication and then he stopped attending with me.
- Lamictal Too Soon to Tell
Close Breast Cancer
I've had several members who have been affected by or lost to cancer.
Treatments
- Mastectomy Working / Worked
- Both my mother and Grandmother have gone through this.
- Radiotherapy Not Working
- My Aunt and Grandfather went through several treatments to no avail.
Open Parenting 'Tweens (9-12)
I have a 10 and 11 year old, plus one who's turning 13 this month.
Treatments
- Education (School) Working / Worked
- Moved to a new city and the public schools are great. Unfortunately two are in year round, the other in regular year of school.
Open Parenting Teenagers (12-18)
I have a son turning 13 this month showing all the signs of becoming a teen. He's developing an interest in girls, and more interested in sex. He's also feeling awkward and shy at the same time. Very conscious about having talks with mom. Tough to let my first born start to slip away a little.
Treatments
- Education (School) Working / Worked
- He's in middle school and doing great!
Open Bipolar Disorder
My doctor is researching whether or not I'm bi-polar. he feels that some of my depression and cravings for alcohol may come from this. We are looking into it.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- Has been helping and I want to continue with this.
- Lamictal Too Soon to Tell
- Just started this. i don't know if it will help as of yet.
- Lamictal Too Soon to Tell
Open Anxiety
There are moments when I want to pass out, heart racing, that make me feel like I'm not in control over a situation. We've tried meds, but it hasn't fully helped.
Treatments
Open Panic Attacks
There are moments when I feel extreme panic, heart racing, feel like I'm going to pass out and just don't have control over the situation. it can come on for no reason at all. Strange.
Treatments
Open Shyness
Unfamiliar situations or settings can cause the shyness to come forth. This is one of the reasons I turned to alcohol - to make me less shy. Not a good solution.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionThere are certain events in my life where I can not shake the heaviness in my heart. One most recently was the death of my aunt. Others have dealt with this and I cannot let it go, causes me to cry everytime and I'm not one to cry. I just can't get over it and everyone expects me to have moved on. i feel all alone on this.
Treatments
- Effexor Somewhat Helpful
- Couples Counseling Working / Worked
- we only touched on this. more focused on alcohol. need also for us and family issues but he stopped attending.
- Lamictal Too Soon to Tell
Open Fitness Goals
Type: Maintain a workout scheduleI used to be the fitness queen. In the last 4 years I have let myself go and just haven't had the motivation to get back on track. I've gained over 20 pounds and as much as I dislike it, I still cannot motivate myself to change it through diet and exercise. This of course leads to deterioration of my self esteem
Treatments
Open Financial Challenges
I live for the future, my husband day to day. He is fully provided for by me and I recently lost my job. He grew up provided for and has never had to tighten the belt a little. Absolutely no concept of having to give something up. My last pregnancy he wanted me to abort saying we couldn't afford it. Not a chance - I went on to prove it could be done. Now he's raising our children similar to his upbringing. Very frustrating!!
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
- I bring it up, we argue, nothing changes. he pays the kids to clean their rooms. We are on opposite pages when it comes to financial issues.
Open Family Issues
My husband and I had opposite upbringings. He was very well provided for, my family was destitute. Therefore we argue about everything dealing with child raising, finances definitely, and having a system that holds ourselves and our kids accountable. We just are not functioning well as a team and do come from disfunctional families.
Treatments
- Family Therapy Working / Worked
- It was working. Previously he refused to go. It wasn't until my alcohol got in the way, I caught him cheating, that he finally agreed. Need to get back to this.
