ForMommysOnly's Journal

To everyone who knows me
As you stand there and watch me,
I wonder what you see?
You see me from the outside
That’s not the real me...

I go about my business
Turn up for work each day,
I try to be efficient
But my thoughts get in the way...

Sometimes you see me laughing
At funny times we share,
Sometimes you see me happy
As if I haven’t got a care...

But as you stand there and watch me
As I go about my day,
You see me from the outside
So what else can I say?

I see me from the inside
My heart is split in two,
You go about so happily
I wish I could be like you!

For being on the inside
Of me with all my grief,
Makes getting up each morning
Harder than belief...

There are reasons to be happy
My family my health,
I’m tired of being an actress...
I want to be myself!

When I see me from the inside
I see a big black hole,
There’s nothing there but darkness
No heart, no mind, no soul...

So as you stand there and watch me
Please just don’t sympathize,
Try looking from the inside
Try looking through my eyes...