Ellocin's Journal

wow, okay, definitely made the walking goal today!  But I had a great time and explored some places I've wanted to for awhile and was always too anxious to.  I was ahead of schedule when I got off the bus so I got off a couple stops early and walked before my appointment then had my appointment, which went well (will write more about that shortly), then walked from there to a store that I've been wanting to check out but it was too early so I didn't get to go, maybe next week.  Then walked from there to get a chai latte and then from there to the public gardens, and then from there to another store and then from there to a store that my mom used to take me to as a kid.  It's a really great children's store but it was fun to go back and look at all the toys and books and stickers and craft items, so much to look at.  Then went to the library were I ran into a cousin and we chatted for a bit...then I dropped off the book at the library that was due back and then went to a great little market store that has all kinds of jewellry and skirts and really cool things and then to a bead store, and then to an art store...and then I decided to go inside another building that's called Maritime Mall.  It's not so much of a mall as a huge office building but there are a few little shops, a great second hand book store where I found the book Feeling Good by David Burns that someone recently recommended to me.  After that went to the retro little food court and had a slice of pizza and then found my way out and went to another store and then stopped in at the drop in centre I go to sometimes.  I left my apartment this morning at 8:30am and didn't get home until 4:30pm....and I'd say a good 5 hours of the time I was gone was spent walking. 

My appointment this morning went well.  She says she saw me a few years ago, which she was "suppose" to but I don't recall seeing her and she can't find any evidence on my chart that I was there so I don't know.  Maybe I did, maybe I didn't but it did go well.  She said it isn't pure PMDD but definitely that I have some issues around time of the month that we may be able to fix a bit.  Next week she promised to have a form for me to track some things for 3 months and then I will see her again at which time we have a few options to try.  It might be just that I need some supplements added (she doesn't want me to start them yet) or that for a week or two of each month I will need an increased dose of my prozac.  Apparently that works for some women.  So I know there are options to try but am content to do what I've been doing for the next few months with the addition of doing some tracking.  I'm assuming it'll be tracking time of month, days of cycle, mood levels, but it sounded like there will be other things to track as well...so I will have to wait and see when I see the form.

Got home and was online for a bit but couldn't stay awake so I did end up having a 30-40 min nap (my roommate got home right at the perfect time).  I don't mind napping if they stay short like that but my naps tend to last a couple hours typically, lol.  It was the perfect amount to recharge my batteries and to be honest maybe even too much since it's almost 12:30am and I'm still fairly awake but I am going to try to sleep soon.

No plans tomorrow which is good because Sunday through Thursday are going to be busy.  I will probably try to get out for a walk though at some point.  I'm enjoying it and doing things totally outta character for me.  It's got it's pros and cons.  Being out more means I'm spending more money that I don't really have but I'm feeling so much more alive.  So I know I'm going to have to find some balance somewhere.  I want to get out to my Aunts and help her string jewelry...I enjoy it and she compensates my time (I tell her she doesn't have to but she always does) so it does help me financially a little.  

Oh...the other day when my nephew and his girlfriend were over...I failed to notice his swollen hand.  Apparently before coming in he got really angry about something (I think a combination of things) and punched some holes in the walls.   Anyway, he finally went to get it checked today and they said it's broken.  Boys.  He didn't want to get it checked because he didn't want a cast and now it's casted and he has to see a plastic surgery to possibly have surgery.  

That's pretty much the scoop here.  Not much but a lot.  LOL.  Wonder what adventures tomorrow will bring.  With any luck there will be some sun instead of drizzly rain but I really didn't mind it much.