4mytasha's Journal

I just joined an online EA group.

Although I can't figure it out at ALL, except to reply to other people's threads, this was my reply to someone else.

I am going to run it off and tape it to where I can read it everyday as I KNOW, I will NOT remember EVER saying or feeling this as I am NEVER kind to ME!!!

(WAS never, that is....       ;)

LOVED your post!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO....I'm the normal one and ALL the friends that have left ME, are the ABnormal ones.

I never would have been "conceited" enough to think THAT! (?)

I am so alone because everybody that wants nothing to do with me (although I think I am one of the kindest, most caring, giving, empathetic person I know and I wish I had ME as a friend!! :) are the ones with the problem. (?)

Although I figured they all left me because I was the ABnormal one, it's really because I am too good for them and they can't handle it. LOL!!

I am going to use that to move forward in my life as I am so stuck in just exisiting right now, I can't even stand myself.

I guess I can't stand myself many times (EVER!!) because I don't treat ME like I treat others and that is just not right!!!!

I always felt that it was self-centered (?) to be so kind to mySELF(?) so I've been more critical, damning and just pure not NICE to ME. (?)

And isn't THAT the person who matters the MOST???!!!???

I NEVER give myself ANY credit and that's what has kept me STUCK!

I will NOT move forward thinking "I am too good for others" (which would be a very stuck-up attitude) but with the mindset that "I AM GOOD ENOUGH!" and MAYbe, THEY just aren't good enough for ME.

(And no, I will NOT end THAT statement with a (?) :):):)

WELL, this is NOT the way I EVER talk or think (which EVERYone here at DS is FULLY aware of) so let's see where THIS kind of thinking takes me?????

I think pretty far, as long as I keep in mind, "I am good enough" and NEVER say, "I am TOO good!!"