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hopefulgirl1972 
I had to get up early and get out the door to work for 7am today, so I felt like I was accomplishing something. But I was tired. So tired. Coffee didn't cut it. I had Mc Donald's for breakfast- 2 mc Muffin's a hashbrown and oj. Came home from work and downed 4-5 chocolate chip cookies, ate them so fast I barely tasted them. My bf said he wanted pizza for dinner, so he ordered and I had 3 pieces. All in all, the actual consumption amount wasn't as big as I have taken in in the past, but it still has left me feeling disgustingly full. Bloated. I just changed into a pair of capri's and all I can feel is my stomach hanging over the waist all the way around to my back. My back fat all bunched up. Yeah, I know I am descriptive. Maybe too much. But ya know what? This is how I feel.
I do not feel attractive at all.
I am a 300lb woman with a binge eating disorder, depression, anxiety, PCOS which among other things, causes some lovely chin hairs. Yeah, I feel pretty! ok whatever.
Please, who ever reads this. Send me some positive vibes, some prayers, anything you have in you. I feel desperate to find myself again underneath all of this mess I have caused upon myself.
