Journal Entry for July 8, 2008
July 8, 2008 10:04pm
I had my ultrasound and sonogram yesterday and I hope to get the results tommorow. Atleast, that's what the tech who doid my test told me when I …
hopefulgirl1972
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About Me
hopefulgirl1972
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About Me
I have just recently come to terms with my food addiction. I never thought it was an actual addiction, never mind an eating disorder. I literally JUST began therapy to deal with this issue in May. I am scared to begin to deal with my emotions and reasons behind my eating. I am embarrassed I have allowed myself to become the person I am today looking in the mirror. I keep gaining lately, and all I want is to loose and be a thinner, better, healthier version of me. I have been binge eating and eating in secret, stealing and hiding food since I was a child.
I have just recently come to terms with my food addiction. I never thought it was an actual addiction, never mind an eating disorder. I literally JUST began therapy to deal with this issue in May. I am scared to begin to deal with my emotions and reasons behind my eating. I am embarrassed I have allowed myself to become the person I am today looking in the mirror. I keep gaining lately, and all I want is to loose and be a thinner, better, healthier version of me. I have been binge eating and eating
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I have to admit being obese and dealing with this disorder has brought me into a battle with depression and uncertainty about myself.
I have to admit being obese and dealing with this disorder has brought me into a battle with depression
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what a pain
June 26, 2008 7:48am
I am so sore. The last few days the pain in my ovaries and lower back has been increasingly worse. I know I am due to have my period any …
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dreams are weird
June 23, 2008 5:08pm
I had a dream about my Uncle Frank. We were talking on the phone to eachother. We had quite the conversation with one another. He …
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the way i feel
June 22, 2008 5:21pm
I had to get up early and get out the door to work for 7am today, so I felt like I was accomplishing something. But I was tired. So …
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Update
June 21, 2008 10:48pm
Plain and simple, I feel disgusting.
I can not deal with looking at any pictures of me at all. When I look in the mirror, I don't always see …
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Support Groups
Close Food Addiction
Just recently began therapy and after just one visit I have been diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder. Feels weird knowing there's a title to my secret.
Close Obesity
I've been obese my whole life. Weight has always been a struggle. I feel lost and don't know what to do as I gain and gain and get bigger and bigger. I'm so scared!
Open Depression
I guess whether I want to admit it or not, I have suffered from bouts of depression for most of my life. Some stints lasting longer than others of course.
Treatments
- Effexor Working / Worked
- I have been on it for 2 years now and it works the best for me out of anything I have tried. I am on a low dose -75mg.
- Prozac Not Working
- Didn't do anything for me to help the depression. Had sexual side effects too.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Paxil Working / Worked
- Was HORRIBLE for me! Dizziness, insomnia, unable to focus, tremors, nausea. Ugh- a year from hell- and took me FOREVER to wean off of.
Open Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS)
Just diagnosed with this as of this week...I don't know alot about it yet...
Open COPD & Emphysema
My boyfriend who is just 34 years old was diagnosed with Emphysema 2 months ago. He has since quit smoking ciggarettes. (He was a HEAVY smoker since he was 14 years old.) He does however still smoke marijuana. This bugs the hell out of me!!! He doesn't think if he smokes pot that it will cause any negative effects to his body with his condition. This ignorance has caused a lot of issues since. Looking for some support!
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ParentI am an only child who recently lost my Mom in July. She was just 67. I lost my Dad 6 years ago this October. I feel bouts of extreme lonliness that I can't explain to others in words. I just know I feel hollow inside. It's a weird feeling.
Treatments
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- Keeping Busy Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Remembering Working / Worked
- Time Working / Worked
