Journal Entry for January 27, 2008
I guess I haven't been on for a while again.. Sorry about that. -.- I've been -busy-. I have some stupid group with a few other girls in it …
I am 15 years old. I am deaf in my right ear, I have no friends, and I'm lonely. What else is there to know?
I am 15 years old. I am deaf in my right ear, I have no friends, and I'm lonely. What else is there to know?
I love alternitive music, girls, boys, cats, and the phenomenon.
I love alternitive music, girls, boys, cats, and the phenomenon.
I guess I haven't been on for a while again.. Sorry about that. -.- I've been -busy-. I have some stupid group with a few other girls in it …
Hey everyone. Sorry I haven't been on for a while. I've been a little.. distracted? I just had my nose pierced two days ago, yay! But.. my …
Hey.
I'm not feeling too good right now. This was a very long and tough day. My head has been aching ever since I first woke up this morning. I …
Sorry I haven't written in here for a long time. I've been kind of... distracted? I don't know. Life is okay, I suppose. A lot of things …
a ray of sunshine to briten your day:)
(((hugs))):)
Hey i haven't been on in long time...i just logged on and thought i would drop you a line and see how your doing? hope to hear from you soon.
how have you been.
hey just stopping by with random hugs for everyone.
A few months after my brother was born, he was put in the hospital to be watched, like most babies sometimes are when they are born. At some point, my brother stopped breathing. The nurse, who wasn't doing her job, didn't notice until approximately ten minutes after he had stopped breathing. They tried to get air into him, and they finally did. Unfortunately, the air didn't get to his brain. He's so severely affected, that he cannot communicate or do hardly any physical movement.
I haven't even really heard of PCOS until my doctor wanted to take a blood test to see how my hormones were doing. It wasn't that long ago, maybe a couple of months. He called a week or two later with the results and said that I had the similar hormones of a woman with PCOS. I asked my mother if that meant he was diagnosing me with it, and she said pretty much. She thinks that that is why I'm bisexual; because those who have PCOS usually have an unusual amount of male hormones. I don't know!
I am 304 pounds and 15 years old. The only veggies I like are potatoes(just fries & tator tots & boiled & baked potatoes, but fries & tator tots aren't considered veggies), frozen corn, and canned green beans. I have lettuce, tomatoes unless they are diced and in goulash or chili or something like that, and I hate apples. Surprisingly, though, I like apple juice, which still isn't good. When it comes to the good stuff, I hardly like anything, but when it comes to the bad stuff, I love it all. :(
It is very hard to have a thyroid problem. I am 304 pounds and having a thyroid problem makes it even harder to lose weight.
I am probably 99% deaf in my right ear, and the ear doctor says that I lost a little bit of hearing in my left ear. I can still hear fine, but it's hard to make friends when the only time you can REALLY talk to them, there's a ton of kids in the same room talking, so you can't even hear them!
My therapist says that anxiety is my main problem, and I believe her. I always say that I need to get out of the house, but when I do, I panic. Atleast 75% of the time I get extremely hot, sometimes to the extent of throwing up. About 90% of the time, I'll make this wall that shuts me out from everyone and nobody can get through it. I won't budge, and then I result in locking down and staying. I won't do anything different because I'm affraid of all of the worst situations. I'm doomed.
I hate school. I try not to show it much, but god I feel like falling to pieces. It's gotten so confusing in my head, that now I have a headache every single day, and my eyes hurt every single day. I get the regular eight hours of sleep, but I'm always tired, and I HATEHATEHATE homework. I usually get it done, but I procrastinate and usually do it at the last minute.
I have cut myself shallowly with razors, and I have overdosed before.
I have been wondering whether or not I liked girls or guys, and I could never choose so I always that I was bisexual. I've been going out for a guy now for almost 6 months and he's super sweet and if I liked a guy, it would be him. The thing is, I've been feeling sexually attracted to him up until about a month ago and I can't stop thinking about girls..so I'm super confused right now.
My uncle recently died from drinking himself to death. He had cirrhosis of the liver. I have 5 uncles, and he was my favorite :(