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About Me
lorelei29
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About Me
OK still older than whenI started on DS, but April is not here yet so I am not too worried....yet. I have BP disorder, arthritis, financial chanllenged disorder LOl, hubby just underwent radiation treatment for prostate cancer, ummm and a host of other crapola. I still am raising the 5 year old but as soon as school is out it is back to her moms. I can no longer handle it. I love her to death and that how I want it to stay. I am tired, I have no adult life other than visits to my therapist, Pdr, regular doctore or grocery shopping etc. I love music, reading, cooking things I WANT to eat, love eating out, love chocolate but currently am a self imposed "no chocolate" diet and am feeling better after CTS surgery, cortisone shots for arthritis and the Abilify. Not 100%, probably never will be but shooting for 85% and be glad for it. My son in law Nathan, just left today for the last of his training then he goes to Kosovo until next November. He is in the CA Natl Guard, spent 8 years regular Army and was in Afghanistan and Bosnia then. I have a son who is married and 4 daughters, 2 married (Holly married to Nathan) and 2 single girls. 6 Grandkids, 3 of each flavor. 2 dogs (yes I DID take the Cocker, 2 cats, and 1 lousy loudmouthed parrot named Louis. I live a drab boring life except for the time I spend on DS. I get my vicarious thrills here LOL LOL keep it up guys! I need it.
OK still older than whenI started on DS, but April is not here yet so I am not too worried....yet. I have BP disorder, arthritis, financial chanllenged disorder LOl, hubby just underwent radiation treatment for prostate cancer, ummm and a host of other crapola. I still am raising the 5 year old but as soon as school is out it is back to her moms. I can no longer handle it. I love her to death and that how I want it to stay. I am tired, I have no adult life other than visits to my therapist, Pdr,
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Interests
Reading, some tv shows and movies, chocolate, trying to figure out mysteries in real life and odd things here and there. I do not have any major interests like others, I think that is part of my BP. I jump back and forth about things never settling on one thing. It bothers me sometimes but not much I can do about it eh? Over the years I have joined and left many groups, learned to crochet, some phtotgraphy, some painting etc. Nothing ever seemed to fit, but then what does I guess. I still do like taking pictures. Especially now in the age of digital. Take pics, go home and put the card in the reader and look. Instant gratification. I carry the camera with me all the time usually, small and fits in purse. I just hav not seen anything of late that is worthy of taking a picture. Of course I have not really gone anywhere. I am tired of the same old things, so I really need to get out and go drive or something. Seems I take mainly pictures of Louie, my little parrot. Not that he is stunning, just sometimes he looks so dang cute, but he is a shithead....bites me and ruffles his feathers when i go to feed him. Feeding being the operative word. He loves my husband, but tolerates me at best. oh well, my kitties like me better LOL Maybe someday I will find something of passion for me and I will post it here so everyone can see. Guess too many years of depression, even interspersed with manic moods, can spoil things up. I do like the DS thingy though, fun hearing about others, finding out I am not alone and in some cases remarkably well considering.
Reading, some tv shows and movies, chocolate, trying to figure out mysteries in real life and odd things
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how about an update? whats going on with you these days?
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hey! wanted to thank you for your comment on my jrnl.
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hi ther my friend im good and hopefully the gremlins have gone out of ds still having a problem down loading my pics oh boy there so good too canit wait to add them but it wont let me how a re you and is life treating you well hope the hubby is doing ok my friend margret is having radio theripy ?? opps forgot to tell that to snowwy !! anyway where was i oh yes she is having the radio treatment and was a bit upset as her hair is know falling out so she has now got a wigg and it looks fab honest it even has the look of the scalp it cost a bomb think its $900 wow but it makes her feel like well..!!!! not so different but all is well with her and we hope it is doing the trick and killing the c word well dear friend see u sooooon xxx pat and pip xxx
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I was able to read this. Not been on much lately, Easter holidays for the little one so running after her all day keeps my puter time down to a few minutes at a time. Hope you been feeling better and had a good Easter. Take care
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hi there sweety im fine and dandy had a bit trouble with my diary not letting mu pals in to read it hopefully iv done it right let me know if u can or cani read it xxx byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ;)
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Close Bipolar Disorder
Treatments
- Abilify Working / Worked
- It is halfway into the 2nd week and I am feeling better. Like a fog being lifted. BUT I do feel restless and slightly anxious which I understand are side effects. I switched from the nighttime use to daytime and it is better. It was interferring with sleep with weird dreams and pulling me from sleep for no reason. If I feel too restless I take half a clonezepam and it evens me out. I actually enjoyed Christmas this year.
Close High Cholesterol
To the point...been on Lipitor for 5 years. For 4 years now I have been experiencing graduating pain in my L hand and now the R and some in the hip and knee. I have been prodded, poked, shocked, MRI's, X-rayed, fed pain killers like candy. No one had any one theory, so they decided I had arthritis...bad!!!! So I have had injections, physical therapy and early on Vioxx (which did help the pain early on). Guess what? CK level was high from the Lipitor, off lipitor, ck down, chol hihg..I am pissed
Treatments
- Aspirin Working / Worked
- just take it to be on safe side
- Lipitor Working / Worked
- Kept levels good, but the statin caused high ck level,cannot take it now
- Niaspan Working / Worked
- Got my tri and good cholesterol to normal levels...yes yes yes
- Lopid Working / Worked
- YES YES YES, 122 for bad cholesterol. 44 for good, and my tris were way way down under 150 as I forget the actual number...considrring what they were a year ago I am ECSTATIC....statins are not the end all be all for sure. Yes yes yes
Open Arthritis
A little over 4 years ago I went to my doctors for a routine exam and mentioned I was having pain in the fleshy area of my palm just below the thumb. She gave me Vioxx which took the pain away asap but we all know what happened to Vioxx. Fast forward to now. Advanced arthritis in both hands and possibility of surgery on the L hand if we cannot find any treatment to at least ease some of the pain. I am exhausted,depressed and desperate. Has anyone had surgery to "fix" their arthritis?
Treatments
- Acupressure Somewhat Helpful
- This along with mild electric stimulation during physical therapy gives relief for a couple days at a time
- Glucosamine/Chondroitin Not Working
- Took it but never felt it did anything.
- Ibuprofen Working / Worked
- Ibuprofen helps somewhat with the infalmmation especially after a bad day. But after a while it tears my stomach up so I stop using it for a while.
- Naproxen Somewhat Helpful
- Helped but cannot take presecrition dose due to hive-like side affect.
- Tylenol Somewhat Helpful
- Taking tylenol along with 2 tramadols help a bit, but I think the tramadol makes me too tired.
- Zostrix Not Working
- It did not do much of anything but set me back the few dollars it cost.
Open Back Pain
Back pain is just another ailment for me. I put it in the same class of arthritis since I have that too and the pain treatment I use for one works for the other. I have 2 wedge deformaties and a stress fracture on the mid to lower spine. After a long day it hurts the worse and all I can do is pop a pill, hot shower and lay down. Usually I feel better within an hour but it is usually a full day before I feel fine, for a while at least.
Treatments
- Chiropractic Adjustment Somewhat Helpful
- While the adjustments can't help the injuries getting the stress off my neck and shoulders and legs helps keep the back from hurting as much.
- Flexeril Working / Worked
- I have not used flexeril in ages as I only want to use something that will cover all bases in my pain mgmt. Before other things came into being the flexeril worked really well for my back. No side effects that I noticed.
- Hydrocodone Working / Worked
- I only take Norco in the evening or when I know I do not have to "function" outside the house. It handles pain very well but I turn into a goofball. I can't drive safely, forget about doing anything productive as it simply cannot be done. Vicodin is not as bad but does not help the pain as much, I know it is the same med but Norco is stronger, less tylenol, more drug.
- Relaxation Somewhat Helpful
- It works only if I am very tired. Resting too long can actually make it hurt worse, Sometimes, even though I still feel tired, I have to get up anyway.
- Stretching Somewhat Helpful
- Sometimes a few stretches that my dr showed me how to do help. At least they seem to relieve pressure and they help with the tightness or stiffness I feel.
- TENS Considering
- This is the treatment my Orthopedist wants to try for the arthritis in my hands, I am hoping that if it works there we can try it on my back. At least it isn't a drug. I am willing to try just about anything at this stage of the game, I am too young to feel this bad.
Open Carpal Tunnel Syndrome
I started having hand pain about 5 years ago now. I got bounced around from dr to dr as no one would committ to any one diagnosis. So after many tests, many drs visits, x-rays, mri's etc it was finally determined (after nerve tests) I had CT in both hands. I still have arthritis in both hands in the same place, the lower joint below the thumbs. So I am still working on trying to get some relief whatever way I can.
Treatments
- Carpal Tunnel Release Surgery Working / Worked
- Had 1 done in Nov and second one Feb. The first one is fairly well healed but still get "twinges" of pain when I work my hands too hard but the radiating pain I had from it is gone and I can grasp well again. The 2nd CT is healing a bit slower. It was worse and my age most likely has something to dow ith that. It is still sore, and gets tired faster than other hand. On bad days I wear my hand splints and that helps so much. Scar on 1st hand barely visible, other hand geting better each day.
- Chiropractic Adjustment Somewhat Helpful
- I was getting adjustments on my hands until a month or so before my CT surgery. It helped a lot at first but as time went by the good it did got less and less until I decided it was not worth the time nor money. But it did help in the beginnins.
- Ibuprofen Working / Worked
- When my hands get tired and sore the ibuprofen or aleve does help. I do not like to take too much as it tears my stomach up but I find relief.
- Wrist Splint Working / Worked
- Even after the CT surgery my hands will get very tired and feel weak so I put on the little hand splints I have and it helps a lot. I wear them at night when I sleep so I can't clench my fists. If I am going to be driving a lot I wear them then too. It is kind of funny since these same splints did not help much before the surgery but they do now. Maybe they should market them as "after surgery" splints.
- Massage Working / Worked
- I was advised by my surgeon to massage the incision area as much as possible to speed healing keeping the surgery site inside flexed and to warm the area. I use a dab of Coconut Oil and rub away. Now that I have both hands to do I use the method of palm against palm. It also helped a lot in the early days of healing by keeping the skin soft and flexible so the scaring was as minimal as could be. I also flex my hands as much as I can to keep them fluid.
- Heat Somewhat Helpful
- Before the surgery I would use a gel facial mask and heat it and apply it to the sore areas and that seemed to loosen things up and soothed it for a while. Especially during the winter when it was cold
Open Breakups & Divorce
I am married to a man I have been with for over 18 years. Right now I am seriously thinking of leaving him, at least temporarily but finances probably will not make it possible. He suffers from depression and will not seek any kind of help. I also am BP and the last several weeks it just has gotten so bad I can barely stand to be around him. I asked him straight out today if he would like me to move out and he says why? Because I am sad and unhappy.
Treatments
- Leave Considering
- Sometimes I just leave the hosue for a while, feel better and ready to come back to try to talk things over but it just starts back again.
- Love Considering
- I tell him I miss him, I tell him things are different but we can still be a good couple but I cannot do it alone
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- When I feel sad or unhappy I use music to help me relax but I cannot listen 24/7
- Pets Somewhat Helpful
- So I hold my cats paw at night and she rests her head on my hand. It is comforting but she is a CAT LOL
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- I go to therapy alone, talk with therapist about stuff and try his advice but hubby thinks I am wasting time
- Reading Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Considering
- I have not said anything to anyone but am considering talking to husbands son, maybe he can let his dad know how bad things really are and maybe he can convince him to go to therapy with me or alone
- Support Groups Somewhat Helpful
- Journaling to DS helps me an awful lot, I get feedback and I can vent and say stuff that may hurt him but he is not knowing what I say. I do not get judged, some feedback is good...just support helps
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Depends on who I talk to. Therapist helps, I gripe to the kids but they have their own troubles. Sometimes I think husband listens but sometimes in one ear and out the other
- Time Too Soon to Tell
- Maybe if we can just weather what is going on right now things will get better. it never was GRAND but never been like this.
Open Prostate Cancer
Today we learned my husband has prostate cancer. He will be having treatment as soon as possible. We have no idea what kind yet. I am hoping to find answers, ask questions and get some good old fashioned advise and support here.
Open Menopause
I am now about 3 years PostMenopause.It is now almost as miserbale as the premenopause or whatever they call it now. I was fine, no problems until the last year when little by little I started getting pain and irritation after my husband and I had sex. So My dr gave me estrogen creams and told meit was normal and just to take it easy. Well, recently my husband was dx with prostate cancer and since this can lead to impotence he decided to stock up which caused injury to me. I am hurtingangry now.
Treatments
- Estrogen Cream Somewhat Helpful
- It seems to be helping me heal,I feel somewhat better but the outer vaginal area is still sore and now itchy as Hell
Open Financial Challenges
My hubby is disabled and has a decent BUT fixed income. I don't work due to severe arthritis in hands and now in back but am trying to find SOMETHING I can do. We have bills just like everyone else and it is hard finding ways to stretch those nicles and dimes. I am learning new ways to even save 10$ a month, I recycle what we have but actually save by simply not buying sodas etc. I do not make fun of anyone who is finding ways to make an extra buck or 2.
Treatments
- Budgeting Somewhat Helpful
- I can do it, it is my husband who I am having trouble with...he just doesn't get it YET
- Cut Up Credit Cards Somewhat Helpful
- Even though I cannot run up credit now I am still paying off old credit but at least I am not creating new.
- Debt Consolidation Not Working
- Tried it once. Did not work as promised, payed my payments yet no one reduced any fees, interest or whatever else they promised. The company got a fee but i got little in return.
- Filing for Bankruptcy Considering
- If all else fails I will consider this. I am not even sure if we owe enough to even qualify. I would have to really search out every creditor and that includes utilities. Did it after a divorce many years ago but I had to, medical bills I was stuck with that in no way could I ever ever pay off.
- Holding a Garage Sale Considering
- I am seriously considering Craigs List to sell some very good items (mostly unused) we have in our sheds. I don't want a yard sale as I am wary of people coming to my home and seeing what else I may have to "get" free later on when I am not here.















