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mumsgirl 
well i spoke to my mum today, she has had to get her self her first walking stick. for some reason this really hit home to me, but im just not sure wat or why. it really isnt that big of a deal is it, an we knew it would eventually happen altho i kept saying it wouldnt. i dont know why i feel so down about this an i dont know why im crying right now.
i dont know why it is that i feel i was in some sort of fight, fight to raise money to raise awarness to help for those in the future but more so to help my mum, looking now i dont know why i tried, i feel like this fight i was trying to win, it was just pointless coz i dont think im gettin anywere. oh im such a drama queen, i think now im just over reacting an dribbling crap for nothing, dont worry bout me im just rambeling.
im still going to do the parkinsons disease charity car cruise that i do every year tho, im aiming for 250 cars this year, last year i got 200. if i concentrate on this an npt the downs then i should pull through, i just want my mum to hold me so bad right now, an say its ok, when i should be holding her really, maybe its just coz im scared, i am tho, i have never gone through this, no one really has done tho, so im guessing im not alone, just sitting here in our house i feel like im alone.
my partners mum is arriving soon, but i cant talk to her about it she doesnt care nor does she think much of me, last time she was here my parents had just moved an it was christmas, so i cried alot, as it was my first one with out my family. she told my partner she thought it was silly. i really dont like her much for that.
i think ill do my washing now get my mind cleared an be positive
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Oh, Courtney, never believe you're not making a difference, because you are! If not for your mom right now, then for future Parkinson's patients, and who knows? It looks like there's a couple of potential cures being worked on right now, and they need the money to keep going. Personally, as a PD patient, I thank you from the bottom of my heart, ans I hope you never give up.
It's o.k. to be sad, you know. It's natural that seeing your mother with a walking stick would make you cry; it makes the disease seem more real, and shows that she is vulnerable, and that's so scary. I cried my eyes out when my biological mom had chemotherapy and I saw her for the first time with no hair. I'm so sorry your partner's mother is such a pain in the butt. Just remember to consider the source, and try not to let her comments bring you down. Sometimes parents of grown children have trouble accepting their kids as adults, and take it out on their kids' partners without necessarily being aware of it.
ukelady
i think ukelady has just about hit everything right on. take care of yourself. lots of love........debbie
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