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just when it all starts to look good an im moving on an up, my mentor pass's away, it just seems never ending, ash, lourie, family move, wendy now stephen, i just wanted one more car show with him, this next one was a big one, to show of all my work, to make him proud, just one more.
now its time to move on i guess
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well this morning i woke up an got straight into what i needed to do for the day, im going to forget the negatives an look positive as i need to get this cruise up an going.
first thing on my to do list house work feels great having got that out of the way, then apply for jobs try an get assistance an then make phone calls get the media envolved in this cruise, im determind to get this cruise to be the biggest adelaide has seen in a long time.
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i'm happy to hear that you are going to start looking at the positives.........debbie
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Good for you! Let us know how it goes.
i dont understand why it is, that i, dunno, just have this fustration that no one understands wat its like to be me an cant unerstand why i cant answer there questions some times, why some times i have these emotional ups an downs why is it i just cant be normal.
but wat is normal, some girl that is pretty, smart an thinks the same as you is that normal, then why not just go to her, an why is it i just feel so shitty inside all the time but on one can see it or know wat to say or do when they do see the inside if i let them. i just so fustrated inside, i feel so horrible inside, i feel that i have to make up for it by showing i can out drive people, by driving throught he hills an taking on anyone who wants to, wat is that proving, an yet when im doing it i feel so good, like i feel good hiding behind my car, that i love an love to show off an work on, i work so i can do nice things for my car an go fast, but why. now i just feel stupid asking all these questions that just cant be answered or if they can i did already, im tryin to make up for me, trying to hide because i dont know wat me is or is scared of wat me is.
why do i feel like he does not find me attractive anymore an i feel like im not good enough for him coz he keeps telling me of for things but i dont mean to do them, its like i just dont learn but i try but i just cant. i dunno
im going to bed now nite nite
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i'm so sorry for your loss..........debbie
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You must be so sad, and maybe feeling a little lost. It's hard to go through loss after loss, isn't it? One at a time would be easier, but that's not how things usually go. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
ukelady