paprika4u's Journal

Well sence the last time i was in here their had been some more problems that had arrived. My 7 yr old son flipped out on me and i ended up in the hospital. Then the state steped in again and took him saying they wanted to get him some help. So they came in and took him and then a few weeks later they came in and took my last daughter saying my children are special needs children and they feel need more then what i can give them. So now today i talked with my lawyer and she tryed to talk me into singing over my rights of my children so they can place them in adopted home to get them some help and when all is said and done they were going to be put up for adoption. A half hr later she calls me saying that the courts already agreed on letting the state have full rights of my children and that i was fighting a loosing battle. I told her again that i was still going to be their for my children and fight for them. Sence then i have gotten calls and my lawyer has gotten calls from others saying that she really needs to talk me into singing over my rights for they know that i caint handle the 3 day trial. Im sticking my ground but at the same time am falling apart. Im starting to feel as of like i am dead, i havent seen and or heard from my children in so long. I miss them like crazy.