PDL's Journal

My little man is 4 months old, I CAN"T believe it. He rolled over for the first time today, it was great to see... and I was so happy I had him in his crib so he rolled in a safe spot. I guess it's now time to put the change table attachment to the pac-n-play away as now he could roll off it. He's also close to the weight limit. At 3.2 months he was weight in at 15lbs and 25 inches long. At the 75th percentile on all his measurements. Hopefully tomorrow I can get him weighed and have a 4 month weight for him.

Since the end of September we have been attending Salsa Babies dance sessions once a week. Orrin likes making eyes at the other mom's and babies. It's beautiful to watch him interact. He seems like a very outgoing little man. He loves to smile and is doing it often, and he now gets the giggles very regularily. He fell in love with my Uncle over the Thanksgiving holiday her in Canada, my Uncle had him in belly laughs. He's sleeping 8 to 10hrs straight at night, spoiling my DH and I. We love it. Dh and I have just grown closer with the arrival of our little man. DH is facinated with breast feeding, he will help me express when I need to, he thinks it's amazing. He thinks it's so cool that he can stimulate my nipples and he doesn't get breast milk, yet Orrin always gets milk. My DH is my best friend, and with the arrival of Orrin our relationship is bursting with love. Our home has become just that, our home, it's no longer his family home, it's now his families home. Orrin has just made everything right in my world.... I pray each and every one of you ladies get your little miracle so your world is made right too.

The last week in September to October 3rd were very emotional days for me. I would just hold Orrin and say, last year this time you were removed from me, monitored, then transfered back on October 3rd to make the decision to grow or not. It was the first big decision you made in your life little man and I love you for decided to come to your Dad and me. It was all brought back in full force because we got a bill from our IVF team. We have 3 little embryos on ice and I needed to pay to have them kept on ice until DH and I decide to use them. I took Orrin in to pay the bill in person and my IVF Dr. was in, she came out and gave me a hug and looked Orrin over commenting on how beautiful he was. I teared up in the office and could only say "thank-you" for helping bring him to me. Thank you just seems so inadiquate for the gift of a child, yet that was the best I could do. He is so amazing and wonderful.

I love all of you for sharing in my IF journey. I pray each of you find your little miracle and can finally put your IF journey behind you.

Sending out tonnes of baby dust ladies.