I guess I need help again
July 12, 2009 10:25pm
I thought I was better, but apparently not.I've just had these urges to cut and starve myself. The other day I found myself trying to make myeslf …
Gear
3:28pm, October 1, 2009
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My name is Sarah. I am no longer a smoker, cutter, drinker... I eat on the regular I do not make myself vomit. This site helped me once but now it's a useless loop to my path. I visit every six months. I AM FREE! I WISH EVERYONE THE BEST IN THEIR LIVES... I'm happily in love and life is going great just remember that for anything to exsist there has to be an opposite. So for you to be depressed you have to have happiness. For their to be rape there has to also be consentual sex and you'll have it some day... For their to be acne there has to be clear skin. For their to be diet there has to be an opposite.. so maybe you want to gain weight or lose weight but the opposite is possible keep at it... HEALTH also goes with sickness but sickness passes... Just remember.. everything will be okay in the end.. and if its not okay.. then it's not the end... add my MSN email if you want to chat... s_m_c_912@hotmail.com
My name is Sarah. I am no longer a smoker, cutter, drinker... I eat on the regular I do not make myself vomit. This site helped me once but now it's a useless loop to my path. I visit every six months. I AM FREE! I WISH EVERYONE THE BEST IN THEIR LIVES... I'm happily in love and life is going great just remember that for anything to exsist there has to be an opposite. So for you to be depressed you have to have happiness. For their to be rape there has to also be consentual sex and you'll have it
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help me... ?
January 7, 2009 12:35am
AHHH! Okay there is too much to explain.. so I'll give basic reaccounts and bullet points-I am in love with a boy named joey.
-I told him and he …
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Journal Entry for July 15, 2007
July 15, 2007 4:13am
I do things wrong. I curse too much. I scare people. I fight when I should conform. I believe in what I believe in. I make so many mistakes. Yet you …
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Journal Entry for June 8, 2007
June 8, 2007 3:28pm
This all started when someone died in my local church. No one was there till the next week so we didn't get to her in time to save her soul. So …
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I just got your hug, Gear. Thank you!
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thats bullshit, u can just act like i never existed, fuck that no im not doing ok if u want to know the truth but who gives a fuck i never existed so o well
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hey sweetheart, i hope you're feeling better. i sent you an email from my darkcloudwoman01 email addy...don't know which one you will get first. love you and ttyl.
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The saddest thing is you could be anything That you could want We could have been everything But now we're not Now it's not anything at all The hardest part was getting this close to you And giving up this dream i built with you A fairytale that isn't coming true You've got some growing up to do I wish we could have worked it out
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Close ADHD / ADD
I dont acctually know if I am. They tell me to take the meds I do. I act ADHD. I dont know if I had to do some crappy freakin eval or test or anaytihng I have been ADHD since 3rd grade...
Treatments
- Adderall Working / Worked
- hyperactivity cant sleep, Loss of apetite,
- Clonidine Working / Worked
- that helps me sleep.
- Concerta Somewhat Helpful
- didnt like the effect
- Strattera Too Soon to Tell
- first med I tryed dont remembeer the effect...
- Caffeine Somewhat Helpful
- I would drink a lot of caffine and I would be still or whatever. But it would wear off within an hour
Close Self-Injury
I have been cutting longer than anyone knows.I started at 11. My friend Becky. One of my closest friends didnt know. I was proud I could hide it from her. She could always see right through me. Now adays she knows I do that. I feel hopeless a lot of the time and that started it. I have been self injurying since I was 5. I didnt realize thats what I did till recently... I would jump from my roof I would play with the cactus. I have been a rather fucked up kid my whole life.
Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery
I am only 15 and have been smoking for three years. I started because it was satisfying. It was better than drinking most of the time. I wouldnt get caught as easily. I started by stealing packs from family and friends. Now adays I rarely smoke but I still cant quit got some left in my closet... I hope I get some more soon.
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
I have been trying so hard to lose wieght. But I just seem to keep gaining it. I dont have a long story for this. Except my overly compulsive work outs where I work myself so hard I throw up.
Treatments
- Eating Healthier Foods Somewhat Helpful
- Guess it worked but I cant always eat right in this house.
- Eat Less Not Working
- didnt work... made me fatter
Open Migraine Headaches
I have had major headaches for about two years now. before I used to get headaches but I would brush them off. But one day I just kinda had this extreme pain in my head. I cryed for hours because it hurt so bad. My mom just thought I was being stupid. When it went away I was so relieved. Than they came more often and harder. I finally got tired of it and started coming home from school with just major headaches. My mom took me to the doctor sure enough they prescribed me something.
Open Acne
GAh you look at me and that is the first thing you see. You don't notice anything else about me other than my acne. I hate pictures. I don't go out I stare at the ground. Hmmm it always feels like people are starin at my face. ugh hate acne. I dont even know what causes it.
