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ahen3 
Well the wait for AF is about to end. I'm suppose to start in the next 3 days...it is some what of a relief to be at the end of the dreadful 2WW but it's also a little nerve racking. How long should I wait before I test...can I handle another BFN? Is David going to be supportive either way? He says I'm to negative. I'm always thinking the worse and I need to be more positive. But it's hard when I've tried for so long and nothing! I know I need to be more positive and I do try. I don't know why I tend to always think and fear the worse. But when it comes to my getting pregnant I just keep thinking it's never gonna happen. I guess I do that so that when I do get the BFN maybe it wont hurt as much. Maybe the disapointment wont be as great. But of course it usually (ok well always) does. No matter what I say or tell myself I still get that little flutter of hope. And I always wonder "what if" and "maybe i am". Of course that is usually followed by AF coming and I'm right back to square one. But hey, still trying to keep the hope...and I'm really working on being more positive in my life.
