Sakura

Open Physical & Emotional Abuse

I come from a seemingly normal family. But truthfully it's rather.... dysfunctional.

Treatments

Art Working / Worked

I do ceramics.

Music Working / Worked

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

Writing Somewhat Helpful

I'm a writer. I writer almost obsesively. Besides, the paper always listens. The pen never calls me a liar.

Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

I have PTSD because of sexual abuse when I was a small child.

Treatments

Art Working / Worked

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Not Working

I did DBT (a form of CBT). It didn't help.

Effexor Too Soon to Tell

EMDR Not Working

I tried it out, I had three sessions. It made things seriously worse for me.

Guided Imagery Not Working

Guided meditation gives me flashbacks.

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

Remeron Not Working

Seroquel Somewhat Helpful

Topamax Working / Worked

I was on it for a while, but got taken off it because I started having vision problems.

Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depression

I've been dealing with depression since... well I don't even remember how long. The first time I was suicidal I was in seventh grade. A baby really. If I knew then what I know now... Somethings change and somethings don't. Also in the last two years or so I've tried something like 12 different meds. Some for depression, some for anxiety, some for "psychotic features".

Treatments

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Not Working

I did Dialectical Behavioral Therapy- a specific kind of CBT. It made things worse. No one bothered to tell me I shouldn't do DBT if i'm suffering from PTSD

Cymbalta Working / Worked

Effexor Somewhat Helpful

Geodon Not Working

Prozac Not Working

Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful

Seroquel Working / Worked

Wellbutrin Not Working

Writing Working / Worked

Open Rape

My father used to rape me. For six years he did this to me. But no one in my family believes me. They believe him when he says he didn't do it.

Treatments

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

Open Lesbian Relationship Challenges

I'm lesbian. Had a few girl-friends. None of them were very healthy relationships.

Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide

family.

Treatments

Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful

Talking Working / Worked

Writing Working / Worked

Open Eating Disorders
Type: Anorexia

I'm finally ready to admit it- I have problems with food. I'm not hard core under weight or anything. But I have my issues. I tend towards anorexia. I gained weight because of one of my meds. It freaked me out. I've sort of come to accept it. But if I go up by even a pound I freak out. I'm obsessive about what I put in my mouth: it must be healthy, it can't more then x number of calories, etc. I have a problem.

Treatments

Dietitian Consult Working / Worked

I saw a nutritionist, I think it's helped some.

Prozac Not Working

Topamax Working / Worked

I was taken off it when I developed problems with my vision.

Open Personality Disorders
Type: Obsessive-compulsive Personality Disorder

I finally have been given a diagnosis of mild OCD.

Treatments

Talking Somewhat Helpful

Open Bereavement

multiple losses. family, friends, teachers and others.

Treatments

Crying Somewhat Helpful

Music Somewhat Helpful

Pets Somewhat Helpful

Poetry Working / Worked

Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful

Reading Somewhat Helpful

Talking Somewhat Helpful

Time Working / Worked

Open Self-Injury

I haven't cut in... it'll be two years in October. I've done some other stuff since then. The last time was January 2008.

Treatments

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

Talking Working / Worked

Open Prescription Drug Abuse

I think i have a problem...

Treatments

Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Working / Worked

It really helped. I got 110 days clean, then I fell off the wagon and I'm struggling with it.

Open Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS)

I was recently diagnosed with PCOS and Adult-onset Non-classical Congentital Adrenal Hyperplasia

Treatments

Metformin Not Working

I had a bad reaction and had to stop after two days.

Oral Contraceptives Too Soon to Tell

Open Anxiety

I've been abused since I was 3 and now I have a lot of anxiety.

Treatments

Ativan Working / Worked

Breathing Exercises Working / Worked

Remeron Not Working

Took it for a while, didn't help.

Open Insomnia

Treatments

Ambien Not Working

Ativan Working / Worked

Counting Sheep Not Working

Lunesta Not Working

Music Somewhat Helpful

Reading Somewhat Helpful

Open Incest Survivors

My dad raped me from ages 2-10. He then continued to sexually harass me.

Open Rocky Mountain Spotted Fever

I'm currently on an antibiotic, muscle relaxer, pain-killers, and an anti-nausea.

Treatments

Doxycycline Working / Worked

Open Dizziness & Vertigo

I don't know why, but it's been this way a long time. years and years. I get random bouts of vertigo, like the whole world tips for a moment. Sometimes when I close my eyes I get this feeling like when you're on a swing and you close your eyes as you swoosh through the air- it feels like that. No one's bothered to really look into what this could be.

Open Shyness

I am painfully shy. It's not so bad on-line where I'm not being watched, I'm a writer, it's just.. easier. But it makes school hard. I also have trust issues.

Treatments

DailyStrength Working / Worked

Pets Working / Worked

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

Writing Working / Worked

Open Chronic Pain

Treatments

Flexeril Somewhat Helpful

It lets me sleep through the night a lot better, but I can only take it at night.

Physical Therapy Not Working

I'm still doing it but as far as I can tell it just makes it hurt more.

Open Fibromyalgia

Due to severe and chronic pain (and not testing positive for anything else) I am considered to have fibro

Treatments

Aqua Therapy Somewhat Helpful

I have a lot more mobility in the water, but it does nothing for the pain.

Cyclobenzaprine Somewhat Helpful

At first it helped me sleep through the night, but that only lasted about a week.

Cymbalta Not Working

I've been on Cymbalta for depression, long before the fibro stuff

Neurontin Not Working

I've been taking it for headaches since before fibro came in the picture and they upped my dose but it doesn't seem to have helped.

TENS Not Working

Didn't make it worse, but didn't seem to help either.

Vitamin B12 Not Working

Been taking a vitamin-B complex since long before the fibro stuff "started"

Acupuncture Working / Worked

Im very new to acupuncture but so far it has been doing wonders Im sleeping better the pain has decreased still there but not nearly so bad and Ive regained a lot of mobility.

Open Schizophrenia

I have not been diagnosed, but I know my reality is not like other peoples. I hallucinate a lot. There are other people who live in my head. I tend to get paranoid. I fixate on things (sort of like someone with OCD might). But I'm so good at describing my experiences my therapist doesn't think it's as bad as it is. People don't realize how crazy I am.

Treatments

Geodon Somewhat Helpful

Kept me out of the psychward, but didn't solve anything.

Pets Working / Worked

My pet mouse is my world.

Seroquel Somewhat Helpful

It helped me keep somewhat in touch with reality but made me gain a lot of weight.