LeggoMan's Journal

Sometimes I feel lost, dazed whatever you want to call it. I'll just get depressed for no apparent reason, and then start questioning my life. I am getting married in a month (my second marriage) and when I feel this way I start to question her. She is a wonderful woman who has stuck with me through all my issues, but I start to wonder "If my issues keep up will she still stick with me, or will I drive her away like I did my ex?" so at times I find little nit-picky things to argue about almost like i am trying to drive her away. Then I come down on myself. So I'll drink. i left alcohol alone for over a year, but now I am getting back to my old ways. The funny think about drinking I realized is that it only makes you feel worse. W.T.F. am I trying to accomplish? I hardly have a clue nowadays. Anyway, guess there's always tomorrow.