Still Sober
March 3, 2009 11:04am
I couldn't tell you how long I've wanted to get sober. Days, weeks, months, years. At times the desire was not as strong as others. At the …
sweetsunflowergirl
9:59am, February 27, 2009
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About Me
sweetsunflowergirl
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About Me
I'm a 26 year old female. I got married in 2006. I have a son who was also born in 2006. I love him more than words can say. In 2007, hubby and I bought our first house. I worked as a secretary, but it just wasn't paying the bills, so I have moved on to a more lucrative career helping underprivileged youth obtain their GEDs. I am a recovering alcoholic. Through the grace of my Higher Power, I am getting my life back one day at a time. I found out that I was pregnant with #2 on February 17, 2009.
I'm a 26 year old female. I got married in 2006. I have a son who was also born in 2006. I love him more than words can say. In 2007, hubby and I bought our first house. I worked as a secretary, but it just wasn't paying the bills, so I have moved on to a more lucrative career helping underprivileged youth obtain their GEDs. I am a recovering alcoholic. Through the grace of my Higher Power, I am getting my life back one day at a time. I found out that I was pregnant with #2 on February 17, 2009.
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Interests
My son, my pets, reading, the outdoors, Tori Amos, having a clean house, organizing and eliminating clutter, cooking and baking, being green, gardening, the seasons, the sun and the moon, solstice celebrations, anything that makes me think, sleeping, my comfy yoga pants, tea, coffee, herbs, making my own incense and potpourri.
My son, my pets, reading, the outdoors, Tori Amos, having a clean house, organizing and eliminating clutter,
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Journal
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Rant
February 5, 2009 10:17am
As many of you know, I have been exploring the concept of gratitude as of late. It has helped me immensely on my journey to sobriety. For years I sat …
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G-R-A-T-I-T-U-D-E
January 30, 2009 10:47am
Another good one.
Gratitude: –nounthe quality or feeling of being grateful or thankful: He expressed his gratitude to everyone on the …
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H-U-M-B-L-E
January 30, 2009 9:43am
Humble: adjective, -bler, -blest, verb, -bled, -bling. –adjective 1.not proud or arrogant; modest: to be humble although successful. 2.having a …
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Spiritual Awakening
January 29, 2009 1:30pm
For the past two days I have been experiencing something of a spiritual awakening. My mind, having been oppressed, negative, for so long, is stirring …
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Hugbook
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Very proud of you. You sound very engaged in what is going on around you. Living life isn't a sin... I am also grateful for everything I've been through:)
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Stopping by to share a hug & a lil love! Have a great day hon!
Congrats
Congrats on reaching 30 days !!! AWESOME !!!
Congrats
Congrats on your first month of sobriety!!! They'll start adding up quickly now! I'm happy for you. You can do this! Keep it up!
Congrats
Are you kidding? My first hero was someone with 30 days! Way to go!
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Support Groups
Close Alcoholism
Had my first drink at age 13 with my mother and her friends. Got drunk for the first time at age 17. Was drinking to excess every weekend by 19. By 21, I figured a few drinks during the week wouldn't hurt. Soon I started drinking every day. I got pregnant at 23 and abstained from alcohol for nine months, but went back to my old ways after my son was born. My son is now 2 1/2; I am 26, and I've finally got it through my rock hard skull that change was necessary.
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Considering
- I am starting my step work.
- AA Meetings Somewhat Helpful
- I would never knock something that helps someone else, but personally I'm not really big into AA. I will say that I do appreciate the support.
- Campral Not Working
- This didn't work for me.
- Cold Turkey Not Working
- Withdrawals were too bad. I was fortunate enough to be put on an at-home detox program by my doctor.
- Outpatient Treatment Program Considering
- I'm in early sobriety, so I'll see how I do. If I think I need to look into an option like this, I won't hesitate.
- Sleep Somewhat Helpful
- Takes my mind off of things.
- Willpower Somewhat Helpful
- It works, but only once you've had a spiritual awakening to make you stronger.
Close Insomnia
This comes and goes. My doctor recently put me on Klonopin and my symptoms were relieved. However, when he started tapering off my dosage, I had to start taking Ambien again. Often I cannot unwind or relax enough to go to sleep on my own; I am a very tense person and my mind just races. Ironically I am an insomniac with Epstein Barr, so I really need to get as much good sleep as I can.
Treatments
- Ambien Working / Worked
- Been on 10 mg/night for 3 yrs as needed. It works wonders, but I don't like the fact that it is addictive and also makes me think very strange thoughts and act funny if I get up to go to the bathroom or get a drink of water.
- Clonazepam Working / Worked
- My doctor put me on Klonopin for anxiety. It killed two birds with one stone as it also helped me sleep at night. I have to be on a relatively high dosage to get results though, and the doc is reluctant to keep my dosage so high for an extended period of time.
- Lavender Somewhat Helpful
- I don't know if it really helps, but I'll try anything!
- Melatonin Not Working
- Wanted to try a natural remedy instead of a prescription, had no luck with this. Ended up taking Ambien on top of it when it got to be midnight and I still wasn't asleep.
- Reading Working / Worked
- I usually read a chapter of a book in bed while I am waiting for my Ambien to kick in. It speeds up the process of getting to sleep.
- Rozerem Not Working
- I may as well not have taken anything at all!
Open Self-Injury
Cut myself for the first time at 12 years of age. It is not an every day problem for me, but it creeps up on me when my state of mind is really bad and my last resort to ease the pain is to cut.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI had a traumatizing experience at ten years of age that, according to my therapist, caused a chemical imbalance in my brain. I have suffered from depression ever since and have made two serious suicide attempts for which I was hospitalized long term.
Treatments
- Geodon Not Working
- I had TERRIBLE reactions to this medication. I would spontaneously cry or become violent. I wanted to die when I was taking this.
- Lexapro Somewhat Helpful
- It was okay, but not great enough that I was convinced to continue taking it during pregnancy. Once I stopped I never went back on it.
- Meditation Considering
- I am just starting to learn meditation.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- I truly believe in this.
- Prozac Somewhat Helpful
- I've been on it for about a year now. I can't say I've noticed anything earth shattering.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- I'm in therapy now. It's given me a better understanding of the impact my past has had on my present state of mind.
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- It depends who I talk to...my friends are pretty understanding. My husband and my mother are in denial about my depression.
- Writing Working / Worked
- I started journaling at a young age and have kept with the practice through my adult years...I love it!
- Zoloft Somewhat Helpful
- It worked well for a long time, and suddenly stopped. I was then put on Prozac.
Open Pregnancy
I found out on February 17, 2009 that I am pregnant with #2. I have a 2 1/2 year old son.
