GO fuck yourself past.
April 19, 2009 10:09am
Sometimes I just get really anxous, nervous thinking about all the shit i've done and if it will catch up to me but why can i not just say fuck …
kaitlinsurfer 
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kaitlinsurfer
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About Me
I have been on Daily Strength for awhile now. Initially went on here to help out with my relationship. I contracted HPV from my bf who is now my ex-bf and I am having a really hard time dealing with the break up. 3 years and now with HPV, life is very changed. I need help, advice, and I seem lost most days, but I still have my good days. I need to know that I can move on without this guy, and I need to know that I can do this myself.
I have been on Daily Strength for awhile now. Initially went on here to help out with my relationship. I contracted HPV from my bf who is now my ex-bf and I am having a really hard time dealing with the break up. 3 years and now with HPV, life is very changed. I need help, advice, and I seem lost most days, but I still have my good days. I need to know that I can move on without this guy, and I need to know that I can do this myself.
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Sports, travel, cooking, relaxing, working out, animals, guitar, swimming, sailing, having a good time with friends.
Sports, travel, cooking, relaxing, working out, animals, guitar, swimming, sailing, having a good time
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August 16, 2008 8:40pm
Today is a day where I am going to listen to my gut feelings. My gut feelings are telling meomething about Darryl, something about Ashley. Somethign …
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Snowman
Hi. Have a great week and many hugs for you. Stacydianna
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So sorry to hear your problem. You sound like you know what you want, or need to do. You know you can't get over him and be his friend at the same time. A support group sounds like a good idea during this process of letting go. You'll need to find someone else to "go to" instead of him. He should too. This is hard but you know if it's the right thing to do. Best of luck and don't forget to take care of yourself.
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Giving you a BIG HUG today, and always...you are a GREAT friend and I am blessed to have you in my life....lots of luv!!! xoxoo
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Hope you're doing well today sweetie....I am here for you if you need to talk. :)
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We are here for you. C
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Close HPV
Found out that I have HPV in January from my boyfriend. He has symptoms, I don't. It has caused a lot of problems in our relationship, and we are currently apart. HPV makes me feel ashamed of myself and I feel alone, beacuse I don't want to tell my friends. I want to not let HPV get me down!
Close Healthy Sex
kaitlinsurfer hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Stress Management
I have a hard time dealing with the stress my relationship brings me. I just want to give up even though I love him soo much. Does this mean I've had enough?
Open Bisexuality
kaitlinsurfer hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Breakups & Divorce
I've been trying to break up with my boyfriend for awhile but I seem to always come crawling back. I break up with him because I'm unhappy with our relationship,we break up and it seems he sucks me back in with everything I want to hear. He's caring, compassionate, loving. As soon as we get back together, he goes back to taking our relationship for granted and stops telling me things, isn't loving and puts me on the back burner. I'm having a hard time dealing with breaking up with him.
Treatments
- Forgiveness Not Working
- Leave Not Working
- I can't seem to leave
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- It seems to help, but it seems the friend I went to took my vulnerability and wanted me instead.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- I try talking to him, but he just doesn't reason or want to listen sometimes. His answer is the right answer always it seems...
- Running Working / Worked
- I ran track and that helped alot until I got so overwhelmed one day with him I broke down in the field.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Going to see a pyschotherapist and so far its good, but its damn expensive.
- Talking Working / Worked
Open College Stress
I find that no matter how hard I work , I can never find the time to study or balance everything. It's hard to make friends, not be judged, labelled, find true friends, balance homework, social life...but I guess that's all about growing up, right?
