cmariegerber's Journal

Well, I haven't been on this site for a real long time. Everyday I get my daily reminder emails and digests, so today I sit here thinking perhaps the time is now to revisit this place. I'm hoping that using my phone to write this entry will work out. I also hope to find some peacefulness in writing a journal enrty once in a great while. In the meantime, I wait for sleep meds to kick in. I don't know how I fall asleep, just that I do. I am the cause of my own anxiety, my brain can't help itself. Aside from the daily struggles that are common for any person these days, I sit here and wonder what tomorrow brings. I took my nightly evening cocktail, and wait. Patiently. And that tingly sensation that takes over, giving me a clue that sleepiness is almost here. On my mind: I'm wondering if my co-dependent is experimenting with meds once again. I found a couple on the floor tonight, a clumsy mistake, I'm sure. Ah, the life of the self-medicating co-dependant. It is not one that I chose to lead myself, it's the one that belongs to the person who sleeps next to me. Gotta love it!