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May 4, 2009 4:34pm
Well I havent been on here since 2007 I think.... I am getting married at the end of this month and I cant wait until my BIG DAY!!!! My relationship …
MGPS 
2:42pm, May 5, 2009
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About Me
MGPS
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About Me
I have had a pretty hard life but I always keep it in the back of my mind that theres always someone out there thats had it alot worse than me. I am getting married on May 30th 2009 and I can not wait to be able to spend the rest of my crazy life with the man of my dreams. I love animals and I really want to go back to school to become a vet. I want to help people and be able to share some of my experiences with others that can learn from my mistakes.
I have had a pretty hard life but I always keep it in the back of my mind that theres always someone out there thats had it alot worse than me. I am getting married on May 30th 2009 and I can not wait to be able to spend the rest of my crazy life with the man of my dreams. I love animals and I really want to go back to school to become a vet. I want to help people and be able to share some of my experiences with others that can learn from my mistakes.
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Interests
Animals Movies Music Spending time with family and my Fiance Helping People.
Animals Movies Music Spending time with family and my Fiance Helping People.
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Journal Entry for June 27, 2007
June 27, 2007 12:41pm
Ok well my sister is tryin to kill herself in everyway possible that she can think of... Im going crazy I dont know how to help her Im doing all I …
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Journal Entry for May 31, 2007
May 31, 2007 10:27am
; Im really worried about my sister she has been doing drugs since our mom died in April and I dont know exactly how to help her. She has three kids and since mom died hasnt lived with her or seen my sister since she died. I dont really know how to help her all of us grieve in our own ways but honestly I lost my mom and I dont want to lose my sister either. Im losing her now and she is slowly slipping away and I try and try to talk with her about it and she wants to stop but she cant. She called me the other night crying because she doesnt want to do these things anymore she told me that before mom died she wouldve nevr even thought about snorting a pill but now she has been doing herion and coke and god knows what else. I know that she is not that type of person but she id grieving I wish I could help her but I feel like my hands are tied because everytime I speak to her about it she says mom just died and I dont know what else to do. …
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Journal Entry for May 29, 2007
May 29, 2007 10:23am
Since Im Adopted and my real mom just died I have been lost. Trying not to feel anything at all. My adopted parents act like I am a failure and …
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Journal Entry for May 21, 2007
May 21, 2007 11:02am
I dont understand why and how this happened. I miss her so bad and I just want to scream seeing her laying there in the funeral home before we …
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Prayer
In our friendship, may we both grow stronger and able to meet each day with a positive attitude. If we can just face each and every day with hope and plans to make the best of the day and life - it should help. Joan
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Congrats
Congrats MGPS, at first glance it looks like you came back to a place where you were comfortable. At your age you are at one end of life and me (at 67) close to the other. If you want to try to be friendly acquaintences for awhile - I'm willing. If not, that's okay too. Just let me know. JoanCMD
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here's a hugx
Prayer
My prayers are with you, sorry to hear about your mom. Take Care. Niecy.
Prayer
I feel sad of your story about your mom! my sympathy and prayers! Be stong and take care always.
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Support Groups
Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ParentApril 26th 2007 my mother had a heartattack and died. Im only 17 and I lived with her for only one year but we were close she had a disease call Lupus and I had never heard her complain about anything other than the dishes needed done or a lil work around the house. She gave me up for adoption and when I was younger I dispised the fact that my own mother didnt want me. Now that Im older I realize that its not that she didnt want me its the fact that she was extremely ill.
Treatments
- Crying Too Soon to Tell
- All I do is cry at night cause I cant quit thinking about not being able to tell her I love her one last time.
Close Lupus
My mom lived with Lupus for 27 years and she gave me up for adoption when I was born because she was too sick to take care of me. I recently got in touch with her and she said everything was fine she died in April due to complications with her Lupus.
Treatments
- Prednisone Somewhat Helpful
- My Mom was on prednisone and she couldnt stand being on the medication because she gained alot of weight.
Open Adoption
Type: Open AdoptionI was adopted when I was a newborn my mom couldnt take care of me and thought she sent me to the best home that she could.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I hated bringing up the past in my conversations it made me feel unwanted.
Open Depression - Teen
All my life I havent been wanted anywhere my parents adopted me for the money and the have had me sent off everyyear since I was 12. I sink into a depression when I feel like Im not wanted.
Treatments
- Effexor Not Working
- I took this and it made me feel wose than what I was.
- Prozac Not Working
- I was allergic
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- I hated it
- Writing Working / Worked
- I have wrote in my journal since I was 12 and it help so much.
Open Congenital Adrenal Hyperplasia
I have been having problems with starting my periods every month and I went to the doctor and he ran some tests snad he checked my hormone level with was supposed to be a 5 and they were a 25% He diagnosed me with Adrenal Hyperplasia and is sending me to a doctor who deals with the disorder.
Open Prescription Drug Abuse
I started using pills when I was in 7th grade I first started them to look good but then I became addicted. I would do absoutely anything for a pill I was in so mant diffrent situations that I couldve wound up hurt or dead. I still have cravings and I really want to smoke some green but I just cant my mom hated me doing drugs and helped me so much to get off of them.
Treatments
- Detox Working / Worked
- I was in rehab 3 diffrent times and each time I relapsed but I havent this last time and hopefully I wont.
Open Female Sexual Issues
I was raped about 3 years ago and I have been in a commited relationship for 2 1/2 year and our sex life is pretty much gone, We dont have one. I cant get it out of my mind about what happened can somebody please give me some advice...
Treatments
- Doxycycline Somewhat Helpful
- didnt help much with getting me in the mood.
