starting over----AGAIN
March 3, 2009 4:53pm
Well, I actually made it 6 days!!!! But then during this past weekend, I drank. Not as much as usual--but I drank. Today is a new day, another …
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amberleah
9:12am, February 26, 2009
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About Me
amberleah
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About Me
I was in therapy for a number of issues: Co-dependency, mental & emotional abuse, substance abuse. I was extremely non-controntational to the point that it has been detrimental to me. I have 1 son in college. Am married. I'm beginning to re-connect with friends that I pushed away when I used crack. I smoke about 1 pack of cigarettes a day. I drink every day-hmmmmmmmm-could it be or become a problem? I'm working on figuring that one out.
I was in therapy for a number of issues: Co-dependency, mental & emotional abuse, substance abuse. I was extremely non-controntational to the point that it has been detrimental to me. I have 1 son in college. Am married. I'm beginning to re-connect with friends that I pushed away when I used crack. I smoke about 1 pack of cigarettes a day. I drink every day-hmmmmmmmm-could it be or become a problem? I'm working on figuring that one out.
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Interests
anything outside, in the water, definitely an all-out animal lover(even reptiles), I am a first time homeowner-I love it(I'm easy to buy for now:)) I love to read, eat good food, camping, fishing, hiking, creek-walking, cooking on the grill. DS has also become very important to me-I guess you could call it a hobby.
anything outside, in the water, definitely an all-out animal lover(even reptiles), I am a first time
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Going on day 4
February 25, 2009 9:41am
I'm starting day 4 without alcohol. Actually, yesterday evening wasn't as bad as I was expecting it to be UNTIL I had to pick up husb …
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Not in the middle(anymore)
January 23, 2009 4:06pm
Whew! It's been a while since I've been on here. My codependency reared its ugly head recently. I allowed myself to get …
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Journal Entry for October 3, 2008
October 3, 2008 4:51pm
Husband's friend moved out and got his own place. Husb. has done a 180 in the way he treats me. I know it's all good NOW, but I …
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Journal Entry for September 23, 2008
September 23, 2008 4:34pm
I just went in the Physical & Emotional Abuse support group and checked out some posts there.
I'm already a member,but haven't been there …
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Gold Star
Miss U sooooooooooo much!!!!!!GOD Bless&take care, Jeanna
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thank you so much. we thought we might have a chance 4 days . she didn't make it.thank you. you brought courage and warmth . love you........devon
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Rainbow
Hope u had a greatttttttttttt Christmas&have a wonderful New Year!!!!!!!!!Luv Ya, Jeanna
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Rainbow
Hope u had a greatttttttttttt Christmas&have a wonderful New Year!!!!!!!!!Luv Ya, Jeanna
I’m With You
How are you? You havent been on...kind of worried!
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Support Groups
Close Codependency
My ex-husb. was ment/emot. abusive and an alcoholic. I had the greatest childhood anyone could ever want. My current husb. is a subst.abuser also. I have been a subst. abuser as well. Clean now for 2 years Husb. has been home from jail for almost a year-no longer smoking crack, but his drinking is escalating. I have recently faced the fact that I could be an alcoholic.
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Somewhat Helpful
- When I was "using", the twelve step prog. did provide useful information for me to get by on a day to day basis. But I had to figure out "WHY" I was using on my own & in therapy. I am now 4 months clean:)
- \"Codependent No More\" Working / Worked
- Best book I ever read and truly eye opening!
Close Cocaine Addiction & Recovery
I battled crack cocain addication 4 -5 years. I have been clean from it almost 2 years now.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
My husb. went to jail and came home in late June 2007. Before he went, he was drinking heavily and using crack and being extremely verbally, and emotionally abusive to me. And he actually hit me one night, several times. I'm really scared how things will be when he comes home. He said he wasn't going to drink anymore--he DOES.
Treatments
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Just hearing music by Staind, Disturbed, all that pissed off music helped me channel some of my anger at my abuser. I would sing the words and in my mind be saying them to my husb.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Had a GREAT counselor! And the books "Codependent no more" & "The dance of Anger".
- Talking Working / Worked
- DS has been my main source of strength-journaling and keeping track of emotions helped ALOT.
Open Psoriasis
Affected Areas: Psoriasis of the SkinMy son, now 18, has had psoriasis since he was about 4 yrs. old. We have, over the years, tried NUMEROUS remedies, oitments, prescriptions, even an old indian remedy-everything works for about 2-3 weeks and then quits working. Most of his psoriasis is on his legs and arms, some on his ears and scalp.
Treatments
- Betamethasone (Topical) Working / Worked
- worked for about a month
- Coal Tar Working / Worked
- worked for about 2-3 months-son HATES the smell and won't use it while going to school.
- Dovonex Not Working
- Hydrocortisone Somewhat Helpful
- at least it stopped him from scratching
Open Alcoholism
I drink 3-4 beers everyday. My counselor doesn't think I'm an alcoholic. I do get drunk occaionally(only on weekends). I have been clean from crack cocaine for well over a year now. I don't know why I feel I have to have my beer every afternoon. Husb. does get drunk on his days off most of the time now.
Treatments
Open Environmental Allergies
Type of allergy: Allergic RhinitisWhen I was litte I had asthma, exzema, food allergies-All of which I out grew. The allergies I have now are environmental type-dust mites, mold spores are the absolute worst!! You should see what happens when I accid. eat bread or anything that has even the minutest amount of mold!!!
Treatments
- Allergy Shots Somewhat Helpful
- I still get allergic reactions to dust and esp. mold-but for a while the shots boosted my immunity to those things.
- Sudafed Working / Worked
- did not work at all for me, no side effects but no good effects either.
- Benadryl Working / Worked
- works on my symptoms the best but hard to take it when at workI get SO sleepy!!
