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I am going to do something selfish, and request that all of you who have come to know me a little bit, please pray that our good Lord will honor me with his grace in my civil proceedings, and let the jury award me an abundant sum of monies. I feel that I have had a lot of injustice kicked my way over all that I had worked for and lost during my long hospital battle, and in winning that battle and losing so much material things, I have a feeling that my life has been a waste.
It eats at me terribly to know that so many things that I rebuilt and saved for, searched the country over for, and put countless hours into restoring and charishing the outcome of my labors over, were for not. It gives me a sinking feeling and I can find no peace knowing that so much was taken away from me, at the expense of another persons reckless behavior. I harbor great anger toward society for letting a person like this even out on the streets, at least a crack dealer who sells drugs to his buddies in his neighborhood is no threat to me, or is a clear and evident threat. A threat that I know how to defend myself from. But what do you do about a drunk at 9 am on Sunday morning? In a town so small that it appears on no map, with one stop sign and he is doing 65 in a 15, to me that is a killer.
It is not that I am putting so much stock in material property, but it was who I was, and was is the key word. My accomplishments were my identity and they are gone, and now I am so sorry that I came out of that hospital. Since I have been out, or rather back and forth, I have noticed so many things that are wrong with our justice system, our healthcare system, this joke of Social Security and Medicare, I am ashamed of our government. I know that we are the only country that even has a SSDI insurance program and there are many things that I am greatful for. God has surely had a hand in helping me to get this far, I have no doubt of that, but for me it has been a long hard life, one of countless reshuffling of the deck and my chips taken away. Ok, so I want God to throw down that bag of gold and say ok, now quit complaining, but you know I believe that I deserve something substantial, to see me thru to the end of my life without having to hide at home because I am on a tight budget. I am asking for a sense of security in my life, that is all, I lost the tools to go out and dig ditches and earn that security, or I would, no job was ever beneath me, and I gave it my all. So everyone please say a prayer for me, that the financial outcome of my civil proceedings, which begin on June 23rd, will protect and take care of me for the remainder of my days, provide me the medical I need and allow me to travel a small amount, because I like to take pictures, and right now I am worried about my financial future, I know the fry grill at Mcdonalds is too high for me in a wheel chair, Bless you all and thank you Jim C.
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I will definitely pray they award you the monies you so obviously are entitled to! It is so easy to become bitter when we see all the injustice around us that occurs every minute of every day. I too am guilty of this and is it any wonder? It's terrible how certain things can eat at us and rob us of our JOY in life, and if that's what's it's going to take to get you past this, not only will I pray, but I will also send all the positive energy I can that this is resolved to your satisfaction. We all have the god given right to live with some comfort and dignity, and I don't think that is too much to ask given all that has happened to you. I, as you know, worked in the court system, and I was the one that dealt with all traffic matters, encluding the drunk drivers! I was amazed at how these people would get no more than a slap on the wrist and a fine, over and over again. DUI's are reduced at every offence until the drunk with 5 DUI"s still shows only a 1st or 2nd. It's deplorable. A drunk behind the wheel is no different than the killer with a gun. Even taking away their driver's license is little or no punishment as they just continue to drive without them knowing full well if they get stopped, another slap on the wrist. Working in the justice system destroyed any notion I ever had that justice prevails. I didn't mean to go off on a rant, but it just makes me so mad and I saw it first hand every day. I understand totally that it's not the love of material things here that are the priority, but the love of what you use to do that gave you a sense of accomplishment and purpose that you have now been denied since you are not able to work. So yes, I will pray, send positive energy, and wish so much that I could do more...... Hugs to you my friend, Dale
dalecl
Jim,
I don't believe it's selfish to ask friends to pray for you. When we need help, we should be able to come out and ask for help from our family & friends. We're all human and we need each other's help sometimes. A prayer is such a small gesture, that really doesn't require much effort. So, I've said one for you tonight after I read this latest journal entry. I hope and I prayed that you receive the financial compensation you deserve. I also hope and pray that you come to terms with your situation emotionally, that you are able to accept what has happened and be at peace with it, and with life. Anger, resentment, and negativity in general are heavy burdens for the mind and body to carry around with them. They do us so much more harm than good. I pray that you are able to release the anger and negativity, and that you are able to see at least one good thing that has come out of what has happened to you. I believe that something good comes out of all our experiences. Even the ones that we feel are terrible tragedies. Maybe we learn something, maybe we grow stronger, maybe we look at life in a more positive way, or become more spiritual. Maybe we appreciate life more, or the people in our lives more, maybe we learn to open our hearts or become more compassionate. Whatever it is, I hope you can soon see some things that are positive that have come from the hardships in your life, if you haven't already. Best of luck in your court proceedings. Hugs.....Ann
StillnessSpeaks
pray for you, i will, as long as you pray for me when it becomes my turn. deal?
kazual
Will pray for you and your future. Hope there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Kazmin
Dear Jim, I pray the Lord will take care of you and protect you. I pray that He will hear your request and needs and answer you with your needs and what will bring you peace and comfort. amen. top of the day to you dear friend.
happychi
money cannot give you back what you have lost, but it certainly can help!! LOL! I will pray you get a just outcome, and remember something for me? The accomplishments you had, you still have them. You still accomplished them, whether you have the results in hand still or not. Try not to dwell that you no longer have the physical proof, rather remember these things as something YOU DID, nobody can ever take away something you did, for those things will always reside in your heart, no matter who's property the outcome of those accomplishments end up on, they are still and always will be YOUR accomplishments.
beingmyself