sarisara's Journal

ok first of all and i should know this buying halloween candy (for the tricker treaters) early NEVER works. my momand i bought 4 bags of candy on monday even though we only get like2 kids if lucky and my mom took in one to work. well by thursday night all of it was gone. GOD DAMN. so now i have to get down town and buy some more. but the good thing is i think my mom is over what ever happened on thursday. she woke up and came to the living room where i was about 2 am and was walking, talking and funcioning fine. i was happy. excitied. thrilled. but i also wanted her to go back to bed and get some more sleep. wow this is the longest actualy entry iv writen in week. any ways my friend (we'll call her may) may called me yesterday and said she was doing some research and thinks she can get me a pardon and with out the help of a lawyer and shed do it for me. i was excitied. may has been very helpful and a good friend to me and my family. i was thinking this morning and maybe this is just the lack of sleep iv been getting for the past 4 days but i think when im through this and i can deal with the ptsd and life then i might show this journal to people. like my theripist, and bf, and parents, and May. hell maybe ill make cards up with the address and give them out at the panels so the kids know what im/did go through. i think im starting to see a light at the end of this hellishly long tunnel by no means am i any where near the light but at least its something to hold on to. and watch get brighter as long as i dont take 5steps back again ok i think this is long enough take care every one