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About Me
savemysoul
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About Me
i am a single mom, 41, have 2 grandchildren, and a horrible disposition. i am depressed beyond beleif, however i care more for others than myself. go figure. i also have a prior eating disorder, have sexual abuse issues, and chronic pain due to bone loss. my life sucks. i have been abused by damn near every guy i was in a relationship with as well. mental torture is the worst, cuz it is with you forever.
i am a single mom, 41, have 2 grandchildren, and a horrible disposition. i am depressed beyond beleif, however i care more for others than myself. go figure. i also have a prior eating disorder, have sexual abuse issues, and chronic pain due to bone loss. my life sucks. i have been abused by damn near every guy i was in a relationship with as well. mental torture is the worst, cuz it is with you forever.
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i love the outdoors if this depression allows me to be outsde for more than 5 hrs a day. i like motorcycles, animals, and swimming, but i dont get to do much with my life except fester.im afraid to meet anyone for fear of rejection or abuse, so this limits my interest categories.
i love the outdoors if this depression allows me to be outsde for more than 5 hrs a day. i like motorcycles,
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I’m With You
i know, the voices are with u always, but u are a survivor, keep thinking that every day, i survived yesterday and i will try to survive today, plus guys are overrated, i advice a good novel and a good device :)
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Your in our prayers.. hope you are doing well.
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Merry Christmas!
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LOng time no seee, hope your doing ok!!
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Just checking in on you. Let me know if your ok and how things are going. Mary
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Support Groups
Close Graves' Disease
i was diagnosed with graves disease in 2001. i had enough adrenaline in me to power 5 people. my heart raced 152 beats a minute sitting still. i lost 50 some pounds in 2 weeks. i was a mess. i had to take chemo by mouth, and a beta blocker for my heart. i was out of work for 6 months in fear id have a stroke. my thyroid was subsequently removed in 2004 totally.
Treatments
- Radioactive Iodine Not Working
Close Depression
after having my thyroid removed in 2004, i was left useless, hurting inside, achy edgy, and wanting nobody around me. my synthetic thyroid meds dont give me the spark i used to have, and am a hurting, depressed anti social 41 yr old individual. i want nobody by me, and have no appeal, wants or desires for anything. i nd meds for these feelings but dont want my dr to know the pain and mental anguish i am going through. i just want to be left alone, and hope it goes away.
Open Hyperparathyroidism
i had a total thyroidectomy in 2004.it left me depressed and useless feeling. i am an emotional bundle of nerves. i cry over a drop of a hat. it was killing me inside the body, and now that its gone, it continues to kill me. achy, edgy, weight gain, listless, fatigued, bone loss. when will it end
Treatments
- Thyroidectomy Somewhat Helpful
- reduced my heart rate to somewhat normal, without tachyardia. but left me depressed as the day is long.
Open Codependency
lived with a man who is a paranoid schizophrenic as well as bipolar
Open Self-Injury
i harm myself....i was a cutter for yrs. i just recently cut myself to subside pain and depression.
