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dolphingirl 
Today was interesting. Had to get another series of shots for my knee.They always hurt, and I did better by taking zanax and a pain med one hour before the procedure, it went better. i felt the doctor was treating me ina realitively paternizing way, like it "shouldn't hurt." Whatever, i still ask to get my (kneeds) met lol... I brought my own ice pack causeZ I get nauseous and "woozy" and cold cloth on forehead makes me feel better. I also called my hotline, to talk about the anxiety before I went. I felt like someone was :holding my hand" psychologically and it helped and I was grateful.I am glad I am a good self advocate for all of my medical stuff, including my mental health. I still have alot to do to get healthier. I binge on sugar alot when I am not slowing down to eat, and also do it when I am depressed or axnious. UGH I used to self medicate or completely self sabotoge, feel suicidaL, TAKE NON-rx DRUGS, PARTY, DRINK, ETC..NOW i "only do" caffeine sugar and my meds. I have been sober for many years. sooooo any how I work as a therapist now. working witgh clients like me who struggle with being dually diagnosed. Today i had a busy day, and I really felt like I mnanaged my time and stress well.delegated better, didn't feel crazily rushed. A bit manicky as far as beiing talkative, but really that's all. Only ONE problem, had a great day, productive, emotional group therapy exercise that I lead, everyone really grew closer, thern came home and felt crticized by my husband, and it all seemed to go out the window, I snapped, raised my voice and felt the energy go through my body. I had to calm down after awhile and I aplogixed for snapping. I hate it when he is critical, didn't really want to hear about my day, then said Hello..after being out all day, then telling me "YOu need to do this__________, you ned to do that_________. I was tired and I was mad, I don't like it when someone tells me what I need to do, rather, ask me "What do you think about this...have you ever considered_________ANYWAYS i AM BACK TO NORMAL, BUT I rarely snap, when I do, it can scare me. Anyways better now...Peace....MM
