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Jenelle8 
4:36pm, May 15, 2009
I was on bedrest in the hospital praying everyday that I would carry my boys to term. You ladies were such a driving force that kept me positive when I was feeling my lowest. I know for a fact I could have never made it through ths past 2 years without all of you.
Ethan and Cole will be 10 months old next week, unbelieveable!!! I honestly can't tell you where the time has gone so quickly. They are both trying to walk, Ethan has 2 teeth and says mama, dada and hi. Cole is into everything!!!! He was pulling to stand at 7 months. Life is crazy but so much fun. As sad as it is to see my babies turning into little boys, it warms my heart to see them learn and grow. They really have healed our hearts in so many ways.
I went back to work a month ago part-time. It is the perfect balance for me and the boys. It gives us all a break from one another but it is only for a few hours at a time. I love my new job and my new boss is fantastic!!! I also love the boy's babysitter, a sweet Menonite woman who loves the boys dearly. Financially we could be doing better if I went back to work full-time but Mike and I agreed to do without alot so I could be home with the boys. It has been worth every second.
Our house is still undere construction but we are back in and slowly unpacking boxes, painting doors and hanging trim. My life is very blessed and I count all you ladies among my blessings.
If I could have one wish come true, it would be for all of you to see your dreams of motherhood come to fruition. I know I have hardly been on here been a terrible friend. All of you are never far from my mind. I pray that you will all get your BFPs very soon. Please don't ever lose hope. I heard once that it is only in our darkest days when we can see the light. I know many of you have been struggling for years and probably feel like throwing in the towel. Please don't. I know I don't have to tell you how wonderful the end result will be because you would've quit along time ago it wasn't. I just want to remind you that the day I lost Andrew and Reggie was my darkest day to date. I remember sitting in that hospital room onthe maternity floor thinking I did not want to move forward in life and I certainly didn't want to ever try to get pregnant again or fear of feeling this pain again. I thought I would surely die from a repeat experience. It was the strength of all of you, my husband, my family and my faith in God (even though I was so angry with him at the time) that pulled me out of my abyss. Especially CarrieAnn, Tami, Lauren, Erinleigh, Soojin and so many others who were there for me during those early days. You may never know how much you impacted my life. There are still days when the raw emotions of that day returns and it feels as if I lost them yesterday. It is hard to believe that it was almost 2 years ago. I will never stop missing my boys, but I am glad to know that Andrew and Reggie look after Ethan and Cole everyday.
Please know I am alwys rooting for you and sending a special prayer up to heaven for each of you.
Love,
Jenelle
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I am so glad to hear that things are going well w/the boys - can't believe they are 10 months already! Yes - time does fly!
You are most definitely an inspiration to so many of us! You went through hell and back and never gave up...you handled everything with so much grace...you definitely deserve all the happiness you have been blessed with! :)
Jenn17
Glad things are going well. Hugs to ya sister!
LDosch
10 months already! Oh my time does fly. What a wonderfully sweet journal to read today. You are a fabulous mommy and those 2 little boys are so very blessed. As Jenn said, you deserve all the happiness you have been blessed with. Now my time is coming and very soon! Can't wait to share mommy stories with you Jenelle!! :) xoxo
JeanieMarie
a year already? I am so glad your family is doing so well.
pug girl
i love u jenelle! i'm so glad to be a part of this wonderful journey with u, you have been as special and inspiring to me and many others as we have for u! hugs to those delicious boys!! xoxoxo
erinleigh
Times sure does fly. I am so glad all is well! My little guy is 6 months already and truly a blessing! Pleas keep us updated!
lvnikita
Wow--time really is going by so quickly. I'm so glad everything is going so well for you! I hope that I, too, can join in the dream of pregnancy/motherhood soon--it's amazing to me that all the above commenters are success stories--so inspirational. Thanks for the update!
AshleyPenelope
Time goes crazy fast! I am so happy to hear you and your boys are doing great.
CarrieAnn
So great to hear from you! I know I can't believe how fast time flies now and that Collin is 6 months old. I'm glad the boys are doing so well!
Jen2279
Wow that is a wonderful journal entry. I am so glad that you are seeing your dreams fullfilled. I have cherished your friendship as well. I know Andrew and Reggie are looking after Ethan and Cole. I know I look at Bailey and know that I would never change my life's path cause that means I would not know my bailey and i cherish him so much that I would never not want to be his Mom. I know my Boys Sebastian and Blake are watching over him and smiling at him. I see such a sweetness and healing energy from Bailey that I know he was sent specially from god to us to help us heal and remind us of what is good. Enjoy your family. Love Jasmine
jazzan6
Wow, 10 months already! It just seems like yesterday that I read you had Ethan and Cole! You are an amazing person, your strengthen and faith has helped me thru my darkest days! God Bless you and your Beautiful family!
pechevarria
Beautifully written. Thank you for taking the time to share with us your deepest feelings. I'm sure time is something you don't have a lot of! Thank you for your comment in my journal. We are doing great & couldn't be happier! Take care...
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