matthewsmom's Journal

It looks Better. It so far loks like the Med. is working. They said that it woul or just wouldn't, so as of now it's not getting worse. So I went to Jax. an seen him an seen the pic.s of what it looked like befor the dose of Md. an WAY better looking, an we as parents know that if it's not getting worse then that means most of time that it just means give this time to heal, may still lok bad but not getting worse is a good sign, plus it was all dry, so dry means no growth. Hopefully no PRAYFULL. Good thing is he has no pain, can only do cool bathes but a bath with tub toys, an bubbles, a child couldn't care. So Thank You all so much for careing, AN NOT ONE OF YOU SAID A WORD ABOUT WHAT SHE DID WRONG, WHY DID SHE LET THIS HAPPEN, SHE SHOULD HAVE DONE THIS. This is what hapened when she went to family to get help, after she took him to Doc. I just hate the none careing an coldness an blam. Why can't ppl. just do RIGHT AN JUST BE NICE, BUT IF YOUR GOING TO GO AN BE LIKE SOMEONE OWES OU THEN JUST DON"T BOTHER. If you wont to hel you just do it an don't wory about return. So hank You GOD, an Angles an All OF YOU.  Had no money or way to go but a friend offered car, an a big yard to cut made it happen an husbund was able to fix Sisters car while we were there (all ways told him he was faster than AAA but now have to give him faster an welling to drive all nite 250 miles get up an have fixed befor 12:00 they said that they couldn't get there in 3 days. So because of you all I am getting better with self. Trying to get head right. Missed so much, an hate that but I was no good for anyone but was best that I wasn't three, but a lil at time for now till I can raise money to move back, but GOD will have me where I need to be an help wit rest. NeedA thep. but no one to really help. is it grief, or ptst cause of how i had to let  Matthew go? I just wont to not hide in home, an no one knows what I live with daily, but on outside no one know an am glad that at lest others that have no one I do understand an really care when they hurt....but thats not helping me whitch is what I need to do for self, tired of dirty house an being over weight. can't afford gym. trying to get a tredmill off C/G list. an trying to find someone to tell me what to do day by day or week by wee, see good when I have to answer to someone but for self, I don't do so well with. Well  just woned you to know whats been up with moods. Oh an had a nice day for my BROTHERS first ANGLE date, was glad was able to help DAD, just being there , an doing a candle then took everyone to church from house we grew up in a sent ballons to him, think it was good for m DAD, i was done right when he lost his son( ex wife) so onted him to have his own part in letting his son go, so he may not know where his son went, but at least He can gosom where that his son prayed,played, an threw football, so I felt like at least it was some where my DAD had memorys. Sorry so long just so Thankful for Haveing ppl.care...... Candeda