Journal

Wow, I haven't updated anyone in ages!  There's been so much change in my life, and I've been sick for about the last 6 weeks or so, which hasn't helped.  I just saw my dr last week & made the mistake of telling him that my pain was much better, the lyrica really seemed to be helping.  I think it was the very next day or so that my pain came back.  Evidently being sick so long has sent me into a flare.  Hopefully it won't last long.  Anyways, I'm rambling here when I should be telling everyone the BIG news!

My stepdaughter has taken her kids back!  It's not legal yet, we still have legal permanent custody.  But, they've started living with her now & just visiting us.  She's gotten her GED, she & her bf have a car now that fits all the kids, they have their own duplex, and she's had her job as an asst mgr now for over a year.  Things seem to be going really well, and the kids seem to be happy too.  They love her bf, and he comes from a large family with lots of kids, he loves them.  As soon as her divorce is finally over, they plan on marrying.  And, on the bigger news front....she's pregnant again.  He thought that he couldn't have kids, he'd been engaged once & they'd evidently tried to get pg & didn't, for some reason they thought it was his problem.  I didn't get any more details than that.  Not the sort of issue you pry for details on.  He didn't realize that all you had to do was look sideways at my s/d & she got pg.  LOL  I told my MIL the news, and she said she'd laughed when she'd heard them say he couldn't have kids.  She knew that if anyone could prove him wrong, it'd be her.  ;-)  But, his family is ecstatic that he's finally going to be a dad, both of them are thrilled about it; my s/d told me that she didn't have to worry about this child being taken care of like her other babies....even if something ever did split them up, he would take care of his child.  Fortunately, they're still very happy together & plan on staying that way.  They're going over to my inlaws house tomorrow & cooking dinner for them.   So, we're keeping our fingers crossed, keeping an eye on the kids, and hoping that she's finally turned around her life for good.

Other than that, I'm trying to get my house cleaned up & laundry caught up, which is a never ending task.  On my good days, I can get stuff done.  On my bad days, I hope for understanding & compassion from my dh & ds.  Ds is getting old enough to notice things, to ask questions about why I'm always sick, why I never go out.  And my dh alternates between being helpful & understanding, and being passive aggressive.    I think that's most of it.  We want to sell our house too, but we need to fix alot of things first, and this economy is so bad, I don't know if we can get what we need for it.  So, yes, I'm still under stress, but things *are* starting to look up a bit.  I miss my grandbabies from time to time, but I still see them frequently, and honestly, it's easier for me, better for my health for them to be with their mom.  I imagine it's better for them too.  So if I can just get healthy again, things will really be looking up.