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TrB22 
4:30pm, October 5, 2009
Well I started the program.Its been a rough week, ups and downs.I have met a lot of cool people and am learning a lot.Sorry that I cannot give more updates but I get home later and am not online as much.
They have a nice chaplan come to meet with me and talk about God which helps.She said that God will help me and that He is with me throughout the program.I had a slight issue yesterday and today with thoughts about not returning after the weekend because it would be so easy to just not go back since its the weekend.Sorry about my other journal it was a bad night.
Yesterday was the hardest day I think.For a lot of reasons.I have never eaten so much at meals before.I have been supplemented a lot.By day 3 youre supposed to be at 100% food.I have been doing 100% at breakfast for the past 2 days i think.Jesus definetly helped me eat because I prayed during the meal.
But I think i will go back on Monday.And bring up with someone maybe an issue that upset me yesterday, well a bungh if issues,lol.
Monday your support person from the weekend goes to talk to the group.Right now Tashina is the support person.
One thing I learned at the program is that im a long ways away from recovery.Kind of sad.It hit me there also that im actually having to spend part of my life in a program.Not that I have to be there cause i could leave but I guess just the fact that I have anorexia and have spent part of my life doing this and needing a program.If that makes sense.lol.
Tomorrow is church which should help.God always helps:) One of the nurses is also a christian and 3 members of the group also which is cool:)
I hope everyone is doing well:)
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You're doing it. I am proud of you. Keep up the good work.
pozfem
everything will work out one way or another nothing stays the same. the program wont work till you've had enough and ur at the point of being pschcially,mentally and emotionally beaten by your disease. I know this because as u know im a recovering heroin addict and i couldnt get clean and didnt want to till i couldnt live like that anymore with or without the drugs. God has helped me alot and i pray everynight that he takes care of you. love u sibling. its a long hard road but anything that is worth it doesnt come easy.
micayla
Keep up the good work Tahnee, you have taken the first major step and soon you will be jumping over even the tallest hurdles! HUGS
wendy08527
I am elated Tahnee, this is the best thing you could have done for yourself. You will beat the anorexia, I know you will.Each time you resist giving in to purging is a step ahead. Many others have been where you are and have beaten their ED and you will too.God Bless You Sweetheart. ~Hugs~
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