Maia's Journal

Today is my boyfriends birthday and i feel like the worst girlfriend on the face of the earth. For starters i feel like crap i barely made it in to work because i feel so bad i had to drink to cups of coffee this morning to counter act the pain pills i took this morning to make me at least functionable. 2nd because I missed so many days of work last pay period i barely made enough money to cover my half of the rent. I cant buy him anything, or even take him to dinner. I might be able to make it to CVS during lunch time to buy him a card, hopefully there will be a street vendor outside selling flowers so i can at least get him some flowers before he picks me up from work this afternoon. I told him yesterday that i didnt have the money to do anything for him and he said it was fine dont worry he understands, but i just feel so bad because he does so much for me all the time , for my b-day he went out and bought me a gift certificate to one of the most expesive spas in the area. I really hate this endo crap i cant remeber the last time i worked a full 80 hrs. I am scheduled for my lap. surgery on the 10th, and i am praying that it helps because i am sick and tired of being sick and tired!AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!