I'm Reliving It
February 18, 2009 10:15am
I can't handle this!! I keep mentally reliving everything I went through last year when my mom was killed in the car accident. The accident. …
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Ashlie
4:00am, August 3, 2009
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About Me
Ashlie
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About Me
I feel alone and that is what brought me to this wonderful support website. I am a 28 year old who feels like I'm still a teenager trying to get the world around me to recognize me as an adult. I am a college student that has recently had to take a break to focus on inproving myself from the inside out. I am making progress, slowly but surely. Although I miss school and can't yet work- I am happy to not have those stresses making it harder for me to cope through bad days. I look forward to improving myself and hopefully helping others along the way!
I feel alone and that is what brought me to this wonderful support website. I am a 28 year old who feels like I'm still a teenager trying to get the world around me to recognize me as an adult. I am a college student that has recently had to take a break to focus on inproving myself from the inside out. I am making progress, slowly but surely. Although I miss school and can't yet work- I am happy to not have those stresses making it harder for me to cope through bad days. I look forward to improving
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Interests
I enjoy spending time with my wonderful mother and keeping our home clean for us, playing with my dog and cats, watching movies, playing my game systems, doing latch hook (a type of craftwork), and reading fantasy books- any day I feel down those books take me out of the world I'm in and transport me to a much happier place. I also like to cook and try new recipes! My mom loves to taste test and sometimes the pets do too even if uninvited! Most of all, my main interest is to feel less lonely and to meet people who are like me and can understand me so we can validate and help each other!
I enjoy spending time with my wonderful mother and keeping our home clean for us, playing with my dog
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Attacked by Grief
January 30, 2009 1:48am
The 28th of January would have been my mom's birthday. I knew that the grief would break through the wall I put up to not feel it, but I thought …
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Rommates.
December 30, 2008 3:57am
The two young ladies I live with are good friends to me, but not great. We have been living here for 3 months and the are still NOT employed! The are …
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House Becoming Home
December 22, 2008 5:22pm
I've waiting for a residence to feel like home ever since I moved out of the house I used to live in with my mom. The apartment I lived in …
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Rommates, Tennants or Dependants
December 16, 2008 11:50pm
I live with 3 other people right now and I am not sure if it is the best thing. One is male and the other two are female. When we first moved …
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Support Groups
Close Anxiety
In August of 2004 I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder including social anxiety and agoraphobia. Over the last several months it has gotten so bad that I dropped out of college because I couldn't even concentrate to read my textbooks. I can't seem to sit still, I'm worrying all the time, and I'm in pain most of the time due to tension. I need help. This site is helping! I am actually looking forward to doing things to make me feel better!
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- Helpful during panic attacks.
- BuSpar Working / Worked
- Silenced the 'emotional rollercoaster' in my head.
- Klonopin Not Working
- Had opposite effect & made my axiety worse.
- Lexapro Not Working
- Did nothing.
- Paxil Not Working
- Did nothing.
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Too Soon to Tell
- Starting this soon.
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Didn't help.
Close Panic Attacks
I didn't even know what a panic attack was when I started having them in 2004. I have them on a regular basis. Depending on how often I try to brave the world outside my home, I could be in a state of panic many times a day to not for weeks. Also, things that happen that are out of a routine (good or bad) cause emotional flux. Why does my body do this to me?
Treatments
- Effexor Not Working
- Does nothing.
- Klonopin Not Working
- Had opposite effect, made me worse.
- Paxil Not Working
- Did nothing.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- It's hard to find the right therapist and the right type of therapy.
- Zoloft Not Working
- Did nothing.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- Helped with panic attacks.
- Ativan Working / Worked
- Helps with panic attacks.
Open Self-Injury
I've been hurting myself since I was in my mid teens. I have cut, burnt, and made myself ill by overdosing on over the counter and/or perscription pills. I don't want to do this but I can't seem to stop. It seems to be the only release I have when I have bottled up emotions for too long or when I am feeling to much pain inside.
Treatments
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Too Soon to Tell
- Start this soon.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI've been suffering from depression on and off since I was in my mid-teens. Most of it came from mean words from my father that cause me to still have low self-esteem, low self-confidence, and a general sense that I'm not good enough. Many things trigger these feelings within me and when the do, look out for the water works. I look forward to feeling better though!
Treatments
- Effexor Not Working
- Did nothing.
- Lexapro Not Working
- Did nothing.
- Prozac Working / Worked
- Helps me feel less depressed.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Finding a good tharapist is hard work, but is worth all the effort.
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Didn't help.
- Paxil Not Working
- Didn't help.
- Zoloft Not Working
- Didn't help.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
My parents got divorced when I was nine years old and my mother took sole custody of me. Before that my father was physically and emotionally abusive to me.
Open Shyness
I've had low self esteem since I was in elementary school and I guess that's why I'm shy. Having anxiety (especially in social situations) doesn't help much. I am working everyday to be more outgoing and live life, not just exist.
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Helps.
- Effexor Working / Worked
- Didn't help me.
- Paxil Working / Worked
- Didn't help me.
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Too soon to tell.
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ParentOn February 7, 2008 at approximately 7am I was in a car accident with my Mom. Although I only recieved minor cuts an bruises, my mother was killed. I'm lost without her. She took total care of me. I'm 27 years old and have never lived without Mom for more than 7 days until now. It takes my whole being just to wake up everyday. My anxiety is off the charts. I'm so depressed I can't even describe. I'm all alone. It should have been me, not my mom.
Open Loneliness
I have had anxiety, social anxiety, and depression. In Feb. '08 I lost my Mom is a car accident. She was my best friend and last family member I had left. I've always felt lonely being shy, somewhat antisocial, and depressed but since the loss of my Mom I feel completely alone. I know I still have friends, people who care about me, but I still have an overwhelming feeling of loneliness.
Open Bipolar Disorder
I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder for some time. For a long time I was not willing to accept it. After I lost my Mom in Feb. '08 (my rock, the one who kept me stable and grounded) I have come to terms with my diagnosis.
Treatments
Open Agoraphobia & Social Anxiety
I have suffered from social anxiety since childhood. I became agoraphobic in my early twenties. It seems every time I make progress, something happens that puts me back to the starting point or even further back. I keep fighting though and persist in progressing forward. Hopefully someday...
