qtpi's Journal

OK research is going slowly but surely. I know I'm not going to meet any of my deadlines but I won't let it bother me. I"m finally pregnant again and I'm not going to sacrafice the health and well being of my child just to meet some stupid deadlines. I don't even really care that much about my research. Going back to school was one of 2 things: 1-something to do until we had children and 2) to help me figure out what I wanted to do instead of working in industry. I've figured both of those out. But I can't quit, I've come this far and I'm so close but so far from being done. If I need an extension it won't be the end of the world and if I need a baby sitter, "grandma" is just a phone call and a 45 min drive away. So I'm not going to let it stress me out. I just have to keep reassuring my prof that things take twice as long as he thinks they do (especially when I"m feeling so sick in the morning that I have trouble sitting up right at my work bench).  I don't feel like myself again until lunch time. I think we are going to try something new tomorrow so I don't make my DH late for work again. I'm going to have him bring me some food (like a peice of toast or something) before I get up out of bed so then maybe I won't be so nausous.

I guess thats a reassuring thing for me is that I'm having symptoms much stronger than they were with my last pregnancy. Hopefully that means that I won't miscarry. (also I'm secretly hoping for twins. Everytime I mention twins my DH gets this horrified look on his face. Both he and I are twins -- not to each other of course -- so I have a higher probability of having twins) I"m still eagerly awaiting my appointment on March 3rd. Thats the earliest I could get in. I haven't even had a blood test yet! So I have no idea where my HGC levels are and if they are good or not so good. I'm assuming they are good. Being positive is important.

We have still decided to wait until my birthday (which is after the 8 wk mark when we lost the last one and also after the dr appointment). This is the first time ever that I"m actually looking forward to my birthday. We've only told our pastor, my prof, and 2 friends (well, I had to tell someone!) and then of course all my friends at DS. But the big announcement doesn't happen until March 10th (or 8th or 9th, when ever we celebrate my birthday).