qtpi's Journal

This will be interesting typing with one hand. Sometimes Alexander gets in these moods wear he doesn't want to be put down. Things are going ok for the most part. The dog is very curious and follows the baby everywhere. He's happy if he is close to him. Breatfeeding is still a challenge. When I pump, the amount I get is very inconsistent. I could get anywhere from 35-80ml its really frustrating not being able to feed your child. I really want to give it up and just do formula but Stephen wants me to stick with it. Sometimes though I think he is as frustrated as I am. Also Alexander doesn't seem to feed properly. He barely sucks at all and the he falls asleep. The only way to get anything into him is by bottle. I just thought this would be easier.

Otherwise things are going ok. He's really long so he fits in his 3 month clothes already (lengthwise but otherwise he's swimming in it). He did fit in his little Halloween costume. Its an orange sleeper with a pumpkin face on the butt! Its really cute. I'll have to get a picture of it. Our camera battery was dead last night.

Two things are still bothering me though. One is my baby shower. It was supposed to be on Oct 14th but that day Alexander ended up being readmitted to the hospital for Jaundice. My friend at church who is in charge of it is too busy (not to mention lots of stuff going on at church) to reschedule it until the middle of December! I'm rather disappointed. Also, she informed me that she has tons of gifts that people have given her. I'm not sure when I'm supposed to get them but it sure would be nice to use some of that stuff. Also she didn't tell anyone where I was registered and I just checked it to see what was bought (so we could see if we needed to buy something that we needed or we should just wait to get it) and nothing on my registry was purchased. So I hope I don't just get a mountain of clothes and blankets and I hope I get some practical stuuf I need like bottles or diapers or things for traveling like a bigger diaper bag or a baby carrier. A bunch of the other ladies at church keep asking me about the date and why its so far away but I don't have an answer. Its a bit frustrating. I'll keep you updated.

The other thing bothering me is my weight. I havr 40 lbs to loose and nothing I'm doing is working. I'm going for a walk everyday for about 45 min and I have postnatal exercise dvd but that is difficult to do because I have limited space, time, and energy. Stephen said i might be able to go to Curves as long as we can afford it. I'm trying to eat less but I'm still trying to beastfeed. Breastfeeding was supposed to help me get my figue back not make me bigger. I miss all my cute little clothes. Not having anything to wear is the most depressing of all. Even my maternity clothes that I grew out of still don't fit. How depressing is that! I'm tired of everyone saying it will come off easily. I'll beleive it when I see it.

The basement is coming along. The drywall is done and Stephen is working on priming and painting now. He's just doing the closets right now so we can put everything from the garage back in the basement so I can park my car in there again. Thats about all for now.