qtpi's Journal

Not much has changed. Still dealing with Braxton Hicks and all the normal aches and pains. 5 more weeks (assuming he's on time) or according to my DH 35 more days! Scary huh?! Part of me is really excited to go through the whole labour thing and get to met Alexander and bring him home and part of me is a little nervous about it. I'm sure things will be more exciting than nerve wracking. I'm also getting excited and motivated to get my old size back. I'm coming up with all kinds of ideas and things I want to do to help me get back down to my original size. I was 10 lbs heavier than I wanted to be when I got pregnant in the first place so I have alot of work ahead of me (especially since I'm up to 50 lbs over my pre preg weight). I know breast feeding will help burn calories and I"m really looking forward to experiencing that -- not just for the weight loss thats only a bonus. Loosing 20-30 lbs sounds a bit daunting to me because I've never had to do it before but I just have to figure out how to keep me motivated. So far all I can think about is fitting into all my cute little clothes again. I even have this one dress that I've never worn because its really shows all your lumps and bumps. I've got that hanging in a prominant place in my closet so I see it ever morning and every night. It would feel so good to wear that with confidence, even after having a baby!

Not much is going on this weekend. Today Stephen and I went to the farmer's market to get some rhubarb but they didn't have any. We bought some other stuff like squash, asparagus, steak, sausages, fruit and berries etc. Then we looked around at the grocery stores and they don't have any rhubarb either. I was planning to make a dessert with it for a get together we are having on Monday. My in-laws grow their own and I'm sure they have lots. We may go over there tomorrow to get some after church. Tomorrow will probably be church and cleaning. This is my last Sunday I get to sing on the worship team in church. They are changing to a slightly new format that requires all worship team members to go to a weekly practice. I think this practice is desparately needed but if it weren't for that I could still do worship team. What do we do with the baby? They tried this sort of thing in the past but only half of the team members could attend and one of them (the music director's best friend) got to bring her baby and it sometimes was a distraction. So now that I have a baby all of a sudden the rule is changed. I don't want to read to much into it but I can't help but be a little peeved about it. Our weeks will already be filled with enough as it is. Stephen is curling on Wednesdays (starting in October but he will take that month off) After Christmas, my in-laws have offered to come over one night a week and babysit while Stephen and I go curl in the social league on Friday nights. On top of that, (I haven't decided yet but Stephen is encouraging me) we used to be in the University choir and we aren't in it right now because we are having a baby. Rehersal is on Tuesday nights and Stephen said he would stay home with Alexander and let me go to rehersal. Stephen just wouldn't be in the choir anymore. He can still do piano at church so he has a musical outlet. I don't really have one anymore and sometimes it drives me bonkers. Music is a big part of my life and if I don't get to sing I feel like going crazy sometimes. I like being in the choir because the worship team sometimes doesnt' do it for me. I like to be in a choir with parts and challenge myself. This choir does some interesting things like Mozart's Requiem and The Creation by Handel (he wrote it before the Messiah). I even got a voice teacher and started getting solos with this choir so I'd really like to go back but it just seems like our weeks will be filled up enough already. After Christmas they are working on Beethoven's 9th symphony. This choir has been invited to perform with the orchstra and another professional choir. I was really excited to hear about it but I'm not so sure I can be in it. We will have to wait and see.

Boy i got off on a bunny trail didn't I? To finish our weekend plans, we are having a get together with some friends on Monday (mainly Stephen's brother and a friend they've known since highschool and his wife). Last time we were able to get together with them was May so I'm sure I'll get a few jokes sent my way. Everything is a big joke to them. They make jokes about when they have kids they want to name them Clamidya and Syphillis. This will be the last time we can get people together before the baby comes so thats why we are doing this. It was Stephen's idea. Of course I also think he wants to do it because we still have a whole chicken in our freezer (don't remember how long its been there but I think its over a year - but it still looks ok). The last time he tried to cook a whole chicken on the grill he thought he would marinate it in oil. Oil is highly flamable! To make a long story short the outside of the chicken was black as charcoal, the inside was still raw and we had hamburgers for dinner. He did manage to peel the charred skin off and continue cooking the chicken in the over for a later time. I'm just glad the house didn't catch on fire. It very nearly did! Well he wants to try it again. (I have hamburgers in the freezer just in case). I'll let you know how the chicken came out.

Have a good weekend!