qtpi's Journal

Well finally this is my last 2 days of work yah!!! These labs that I run are starting to get exhausting, especially when the head lab instructor doesn't listen to your concerns. I'm getting really frustrated with him. But I'll be gone soon so I shouldn't get too stressed out about it.

On Saturday we are leaving on a really long road trip out to Seattle to see my brother get married. We are driving because I'm too afraid to fly while pregnant. So this is our last trip with just the two of us. We bought a new camera too so I should upload some pictures. I might get a chance to do that on our trip because we are taking the lap top. You should see the picture he took of me when we were playing with the camera once we got it home too. He was on the floor taking pictures of the dog and then points it up at me so my belly takes up 2/3s of the picture and little head is at the top. I can't beleive how big I"m getting. I had my hair done today and the hair stylist asked when I was due. When I told her in October she was amazed. She thought I was ready to pop now but I still have another 3 months to go. I know I shouldn't be complaining but I miss doing things like bending over, putting my shoes on, petting the dog with out him having to jump up on the couch so I can reach him, walking up a flight of stairs with out getting winded, singing like I used to etc. because I'm carrying so high I can't expand my lungs and diaphram to be able to sing like I used to. I know all this is temporary but I still miss it.. like my cute little clothes. I think my DH is getting tired of hearing me say stuff like this. I don't think he's that tuned in and supportive but he thinks he is. To help, he does things that I'm still able to do but not the things that I can't do so tahts a bit annoying. I still appriciate it though. I know I probably don't show it very well though. I've been kind of grouchy the last few days and I don't know why. I guess I just want to feel like myself again. That will probably be a long time coming. I feel lonely alot too. My DH is not a big talker and I think since moving to Canada he's become even quieter. I was hoping moving closer to his home would have the opposite effect. Hes also working really hard on the basement but I feel like he's either at work or in the basement and I'm just left alone on the couch. Good thing I have the dog to keep me company. Hopefully 2 weeks trapped in a car together will help us reconnect  and talk about stuff. I hate feeling lonely, especially right now. I don't have too many people to talk to either. I guess thats enough venting for one day.