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November 23, 2009 11:27am
My only job is to keep myself alive so that my family doesn't have to go through the tradgedy of a suicide. So, it really doesn't matter how …
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WatersMoon110
5:31pm, November 6, 2009
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About Me
WatersMoon110
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About Me
Let's see. I'm 25. I am married I've suffered from PTSD and Depression for a very long time. I like small get-togethers, but find myself really edgy in large crowds of people. I would rather have a small group of close friends over than hold a big rockin' party. I am compulsively messy. I think that I just feel safer in a "nest" of clutter, trash, and clothes. I know that I need to work on this, but I don't...
Let's see. I'm 25. I am married I've suffered from PTSD and Depression for a very long time. I like small get-togethers, but find myself really edgy in large crowds of people. I would rather have a small group of close friends over than hold a big rockin' party. I am compulsively messy. I think that I just feel safer in a "nest" of clutter, trash, and clothes. I know that I need to work on this, but I don't...
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I love animals. I have six rats, a turtle, two cats, two parakeets, and a gerbil. I love reading. I used to read compulsively, but now I try to read less. I used to read between 1 and 5 books a day. Now I read about a book or two a week. I play a lot of video games. I love the Wii, and play a lot of the Sims 2 on my PC. I love GOOD music! I tend to listen to older rock and folk-rock. But I don't discriminate and will listen to anything if it's good and someone tells me about it.
I love animals. I have six rats, a turtle, two cats, two parakeets, and a gerbil. I love reading. I used
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Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI have been depressed for most of my life. I was the middle child and the textbook Lost Child. I was abused (sexually, physically, emotionally, mentally) from age 12 to 16. I have suffered greatly from depression.
Treatments
- Effexor Not Working
- Was on this for about 6 months. It did nothing for my depression and made my migraines worse.
- Prayer Not Working
- Prayer only works when you are willing to do more than just put yourself in the hands of your deity of choice. You need to ALSO help yourself!
- Prozac Not Working
- Prozac made me feel nothing. I didn't feel depressed, but I didn't feel anything else either. I wouldn't recommend it.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- I have been in therapy on and off since 5th Grade. Most of the people I saw were crazier that I was (and that is saying something).
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- I'm taking this now, in addition to the Imipramine.
- Tofranil Working / Worked
- Ive been on this for over a year now and Ive found this to be very helpful.
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- The DBT program at Akron General really helped me. I learned a set of skills to deal with problems and problem emotions.
Close Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
I was sexually (as well as emotionally, mentally, and physically) abused for four years. Since then I've been unable to deal with a lot of situations.
Treatments
- Rape Counseling Not Working
- I went to counseling for about a year specifically to deal with the abuse. It didn't help, but it probably didn't hurt either.
- Prayer Not Working
- Prayer only works when you are willing to do more than just put yourself in the hands of your deity of choice. You need to ALSO help yourself!
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- The DBT program at Akron General really helped me. I learned a set of skills to deal with problems and problem emotions.
Open Self-Injury
I've been a self-injurer since I was 12. I have tried to stop, and didn't cut at during the year 2006, but have cut some this year. I am trying to stop.
Treatments
- Prayer Not Working
- Prayer only works when you are willing to do more than just put yourself in the hands of your deity of choice. You need to ALSO help yourself!
- Rubber Bands Working / Worked
- I found this to be quite helpful. Just but one on my wrist, and then I can snap it instead of injuring myself.
- Tattoos Working / Worked
- I really benefited from my first tattoo - it hurts and you can smack it when it itches. I'm hoping to get a second sometime in the near future.
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- The DBT program at Akron General really helped me. I learned a set of skills to deal with problems and problem emotions.
Open Sexual Abuse
I was sexually abused from age 12 to age 16.
Treatments
- Prayer Not Working
- Prayer only works when you are willing to do more than just put yourself in the hands of your deity of choice. You need to ALSO help yourself!
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- The DBT program at Akron General really helped me. I learned a set of skills to deal with problems and problem emotions.
Open Marijuana Addiction & Recovery
All it takes to quit is WILL POWER. Addiction to marijuana is a mental addiction, which means that your body craves the emotions that pot creates in you, not the THC.
Treatments
- Keeping Busy Working / Worked
- One helpful way to stop using pot is to find something else instead. Pick a friend who will "sponsor" you, and call them when you want to use. Read a book!
- Faith Not Working
- You can't just try to replace marijuana with religion. Then you are just in danger of becoming ADDICTED to religion. You can find help from your faith, but you need more!
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Drug counseling has never helped me or anyone I know that has been through it.
- Physical Exercise Not Working
- Replacing a marijuana addiction with an addiction to physical exercise might work for a while, but you are really in danger of becoming addicted to exercising.
- Writing Not Working
- I have an issue with writing down my feelings, so I didn't find this helpful. I know some people it has helped.
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Thinking positive can be helpful, but you need some support and a lot of will power or you will just relapse.
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Not Working
- You need to be able to resist temptation when you are around it also. When I WANTED to quit, it didn't matter if others used around me. I just didn't want to.
- Prayer Not Working
- Prayer only works when you are willing to do more than just put yourself in the hands of your deity of choice. You need to ALSO help yourself!
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- I quit for a year, with no withdrawal, simply because I didn't want to smoke.
Open TMJ
I was diagnosed with TMJ at 16 by my dentist.
Treatments
- Mouthguard Somewhat Helpful
- I got a mouth guard from my dentist when I was diagnosed. It did seem to relieve some of the pain, but then my dog chewed it up, and I never got it replaced
- Stretching Somewhat Helpful
- Five or six times a day, I try to stretch my mouth really wide. This seems to keep me from gritting my teeth while I'm sleeping.
- Prayer Not Working
- Prayer only works when you are willing to do more than just put yourself in the hands of your deity of choice. You need to ALSO help yourself!
Open Anxiety
I never really thought that I had an anxiety disorder. I just knew that sometimes I was irrationally scared to do normal things, like leaving the house.
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Too Soon to Tell
- I start on Sunday.
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- The DBT program at Akron General really helped me. I learned a set of skills to deal with problems and problem emotions.
Open Tinnitus
I didn't know that "Tinnitus" was an actually condition. I guess I figured that everyone heard the ringing sounds too?
