Journal

Well I got my first period yesterday since losing Christian.  Only 2 more periods and we can start ttc again.  I couldnt wait for my first period and now i cant wait till its over, it is so much heavier than they used to be and i feel so crampy.  i wich i could just leave work, go home, put on my pjs and lay in bed.

I guess I should stop complaining and get over its all part of the process.  I can't believe its been a month already since I lost her.

today my mom and i went to a mass that was for expectant mothers, mothers trying to conceive, and mothers who have lost their child.  It was so wonderful to be in a room full of people who feel the same way i do.  It really makes you feel like you are not alone.  I was hesitant in going but i am so glad i decided to go.  If any of you know of a mass like this near you i would suggest going it was really uplifting.

I am having some girlfriends over tonight.  We are going to order pizza and drink wine.  I am really looking forward to it.  My husband is out of town for the night and this way I wont have to spend it at home alone.

Have a great weekend everyone!!!!!

Well my first week back to work is over.  I have a friend at work who is 23 weeks pregnant so I gave her all of my maternity clothes thinking it would be good to get them out of the house until I'm ready to wear them again but now seeing her at work with them on I think its actually harder.  I was being nice because she doesnt have much money to buy her own clothes, I dont know I need to just get over it.

by the way I lost 2 pounds this week on weight watchers...YAY!!