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for those who care, we get to take posetion of our new home 0n the 24th of nov. so will be moving 24th and 25th. and will then be having family come and celebrate thanksgiving in new home. exciting and overwhelming. hope all of you are well. also i quit smoking june 26th of this year and am still smoke free. bye.
this may be my last journal. this site use to mean the world to me and was helpful. but i am afraid i must have done something wrong to offend others and i am so sorry if i did. i dont feel i am getting the advise and support i use to. i know i didnt get on much and am sorry and therefore was not there to support others. i have been trying to get on more but time at the library is limited. i am feeling this site is no longer what i need i will leave you all alone.
not sure why i journal. daily strength use to mean the difference from life to death. it was what kept me going. i would vent and others listened and even gave advise even if it was not what i wanted to hear but it helped and it was that that i believe helped me stay strong and keep going. not sure why i feel the way i do. i have 6 kids(2 who have caused great pain but i still love) 2 beautiful grandsons and other family. we found a beautiful huge house for my daughter and her husband and 2 sons and my twins and son. so why am i so blue. i am not suicidal but live each day not caring if tomorrow comes or not. i have allowed the eating disorer to totally rule. losing that battle. depression keeps my locked in my home and only going out if absolutely neccessary.
i miss my adopted mom so much. my biological mother is so confussing and fustrating and my brother who i love dearly lives 20 hours away with my nieces. i have my family here but feel so alone. i know my kids love me because of what i do for them but right now i feel no one really cares if i live or die. sorry guess i am having a pitty party. so i felt this way i wrote it down so to vent and now i will stuff those feelings back down and go back to going through the motions of life until it ends.
i do hope all is well for all my friends.
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