annieagain's Journal

I am back and not doing real well. Gary my sixteen year old son came to live with me on May 4th and life has ceased to be livable. First off he gave the car keys to an acquaintance and they wrecked my beautiful car that I had paid over 3000 on and still had a little more to pay on. He has stolen close to 200 dollars and some valium from me not to mention any of my self esteem that I had worked hard to maintain. He has taken bottles of wine, let numerous kids in and out of my home at all hours of the night. I do not sleep in my  bed since falling asleep there means I really sleep and then he does whatever he wants to around the house. It is a house finally which I cannot get to enjoy now at all. I woke up one night to the sound of someone entering my home and calling out his name.  I call the police and they act like there is nothing they can do about it. It is like they are playing dumb cop smart cop, instead of good cop bad cop.  Then his po in CA and IL think that they are playing ping pong and I am the ball. The CA PO when I told her that the way Gary is carrying on and my fearfulness of sleeping in my bed was not good for my MS she snaps back that she knows all about MS her daughter has MS. I then was explaining what Gary has been doing and I tell her about how he stood over me with a closed fist. She said I was a bad parent because I should cold cock him, HA I ask her did you not hear what I said, do not think I could cold cock a puppy let alone a six foot tall teenager.

It just seems that everywhere I turn to ask for help I am told it is my fault and I am a bad parent.

I am at the point where MS could not bring me too a sixteen year old has done it...I am a failure a loser and basically no good as a person.