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RockstarsMom 
Well ladies the second anniversary has come and gone and I'm still here. The tears have dried for the present moment and I'm in a flat spot, emotionally.
I spent the 28 making two collages of John's pictures, one from a baby to an adult and one as an adult to his death. I think they are wonderful. The capture him in all his moods and in all parts of his life, from sleeping on the couch to snowboarding and rock climbing. I cried a bucket of tears but I enjoyed it as well. The memories, oh the memories, some of those pictures brought back. The laughter, the tears, the fights, the joys, the triumphs, his life; before my eyes in pictures. In the afternoon I went to the cemetery and cleaned his site and weeded and planted some new thyme. His grave site is covered with creeping thyme rather than grass. I find it a good alternative. It flowers, stays green and can even be mowed, and smells lovely when stepped on. John loved herbs and plants and so I thought it appropriate.
I now have a disgusting cold which I'm crediting Cyn with passing on to me, miles and computers regardless. I found this poem and I thought everyone here would appreciate it and for myself it says what I can not.
SINCE HEAVEN BECAME YOUR HOME
I SOMETIMES FEEL I'M SO ALONE
AND THOUGH WE NOW ARE FAR APART
YOU HOLD A BIG PIECE OF MY HEART.
I NEVER KNEW HOW MUCH I'D GRIEVE
WHEN IT WAS TIME FOR YOU TO LEAVE,
OR JUST HOW MUCH MY HEART WOULD ACHE
FROM THAT ONE FRAGMENT YOU WOULD TAKE.
GOD LET'S THIS TENDER HOLE REMAIN
REMINDING ME WE'LL MEET AGAIN,
AND ONE ALL THE PAIN WILL CEASE
WHEN HE RESTORES THE MISSING PIECE.
HE'LL TURN TO JOY MY EVERY TEAR
WITH THOUGHTS OF YOU I HOLD SO DEAR,
AND THEY'LL BECOME MY SPECIAL WAY
TO TREASURE OUR REUNION DAY.
FOR MY SON JOHN LLOYD GERRY JUNE 27, 1979--MAY 28, 2006
Comments
It took strength to do and keep doing what you do. I am thankful that you had fun remembering the good memories. It is those that keep us going. My love to you
Bens mom 4ever
Debi
sarasmom
in my own pain , i tuned everyone out , iam so so sorry i did not remember , i have a candle always lit for all our boys , please forgive me , u know i care deeply for all , much love and prayers +pat
4grandkids
Kathy,
I am glad that you found moments to laugh. I like the poem and it is most appropriate. Hugs, Inga
ihart
thank you for posting the pem. i like it. memories are what gets us through each day at times. i love you! ~~ charlayne
Charlayne
The poem says what we feel, but can't find the words to express. Thank you for sharing..Rita
RiJi
HUGGING U TIGHT....MY HEART IS WITH U...LUV YA
DianaLynn
So very true. I can not wait for that day! Big hugs to you, honey. Love you bunches, Barbara
barbarak23
that is just a such beautiful poem - I think you are just soooo amazing to create those wonderful collages that celebrate the life of your beautiful son. You are just so creative with this and so brave to do it....so very proud of you my friend....much love and many hugggs Cathrynn XXXX
Cathrynn
Cathy, I love the idea of planting thyme rather than plain grass. The look and smell would be grand. And the poem is perfect. Love Dianne
Fouty
Cathy, I'm glad you got through the day and were able to focus on the memories. Memories become treasure after a loved one leaves. You give me hope that I can get through another year. Thanks for your friendship. Love Robin
Robin4
I am gald that you got through the day. The 28th must have been hard for you. That is my youngest b-day. I was making a collage of him and Brandon to place on his wall for his b-day so that he will always have his big bro close to him, I am not done with it like I hoped I would be for his b-day but he knows I am doing it now :) It gives me hope reading this and other peoples that I too can make it through too.
Nice poem thanks for sharing. Tammie
akhockeymom
Melissa loved herbs too, I just cleaned out the herb garden last week. I couldn't believe that there was still chives growing. Love the poem, very nice. Take Care of U...Love and Hugs.
TracyW
Love the poem... did you write that? It's amazing and so true. Love ya, Vera
Ericksmom
Cathy, I'm so glad that you had such a positive way to commemorate the day. You are such a role model to me and others who are or will deal with the loss of a child. Thanks for sharing, and thanks for the poem.
Bensmomjulie