Trying to hang on
January 14, 2009 1:21pm
Dear DS friends, First I want to thank you for your words of encouragement. I appreciate all of you.
I have been attending Al-anon …
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carolmlore 
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About Me
carolmlore
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About Me
I am a married woman (43)Ohio, with one biological child, and three stepchildren. I have had depression for many years, but a new job pushed me over my limit. I have been diagnosed with Bipolar II disorder. I am currently not working. I also self-abused myself by burning-I used a very hot curling iron (but not anymore). Had 2 suicide attempts-spent two different weeks in the psych ward-was an interesting experience-actually made some friends, mostly just very boring.
I am a married woman (43)Ohio, with one biological child, and three stepchildren. I have had depression for many years, but a new job pushed me over my limit. I have been diagnosed with Bipolar II disorder. I am currently not working. I also self-abused myself by burning-I used a very hot curling iron (but not anymore). Had 2 suicide attempts-spent two different weeks in the psych ward-was an interesting experience-actually made some friends, mostly just very boring.
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Interests
I enjoy working in my yard and laying out in the sun. I have 3 dogs and 1 cat that love me unconditionally. I also work with stained glass, I am just a student but I do enjoy it. I love the outdoors and the beauty of God's creation. I am a Christian and I am clinging to God right now. I was so busy before I stopped working that my hobbies and interests kind of dried up. I need to rediscover myself.
I enjoy working in my yard and laying out in the sun. I have 3 dogs and 1 cat that love me unconditionally.
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I'm trying so hard
January 9, 2009 10:19am
Dear Ds friends, I am struggling with my thoughts and feelings. I am a Christian and I know what God's word says about worrying, but …
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Hanging in here
January 7, 2009 2:49pm
Dear DS friends,
I hope all of you are well. I know that many of you are struggling the same as I am. I am feeling somewhat better but …
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Yes, I'm still alive
January 2, 2009 11:10am
Dear DS friends,
Please forgive me for not writing in so long. I've had a lot of difficulties at home and I have been isolating myself …
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hey carol, i havent been on much lately, just wanted to let you know i didnt forget about you, and that i am thinking of you and (as my mom would say) sending ya some positive vibes! hugs and love
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Thanks for your comments on my journal entry. I am still really down very very depressed and in emotional pain. I see you're mood is horrible. I'm so sorry. I'm not sure what's going on with you, but I know you will get through it.
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OMG yesterday i avoided that millie lady. for some reason i felt like i had to do it for you. and i did! oh did it feel great. she saw me, started hurrying her way over while calling my dogs name.. in her annoying voice...i kept pulling him looking forward, and then at teh very last minute looked at her said gotta walk him before my brother gets here, sorrry..and then i ran. mainly so she couldnt convince me to chat just for a minute.. it was so great, adn i didnt even feel bad about it. i was so proud of myself.i actually ran away smiling.. i feel liek i owe it you :) so thank you carol for giving that bit of confindence and reasurance i needed :) HUGS!
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BIG HUGS and Thanks.
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Finding a sponsor isn't easy. My suggestion is to keep going to different meetings, once you find one you like, go there regularly and pick someone. Just because that lady didn't get back to u doesn't mean everyone will be like that. Don't give up. love Sepi
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
Was diagnosed Bipolar 10/2006, had 2 overdose attempts since 11/2006. Haven't worked since.I burned myself when I felt really stresed, am afraid to leave my house, don't answer the phone or door. Want to retreat to the basement. Feel scared most of the time. I have a lot of ups and downs, and I still feel suicidal frequently.
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- This is really Klonipin but it doesn't show up on treatments.
- Lamictal Considering
- Am on so many different meds that I can't tell. Pdoc just raised it. Now I think it may have helped.
- Lithium Working / Worked
- I think the Lithium is working.
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- Seems to be working
Close Physical & Emotional Abuse
Was physically abused by my ex-husband for 16 years, am now remarried.
Treatments
- Leave Working / Worked
- Only wish I would have left sooner.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- The therapists are so detached.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Talking with others who have gone through the same thing seems to help.
Open Burns
When I get upset with myself, and feel like I want to be punished, I burn myself to feel better. I burned myself on my wrist/forearm and gave myself a very embarrassing scar in the shape of a cross. Now I burn myself somewhere where it won't show.
Open Parenting Teenagers (12-18)
I have 3 stepchildren-boy 20,twin girls 18, and my daughter 18. The stepchildren are very bad, the boy is hateful, disrespectful and no longer welcome in my home. The twins are going wild sexually, 1 living with a registered sex offender, the other having sex w/ a 28 year old man. My daughter-honor student, in band, accepted to nursing school.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- The stepchildren drive my husband and I insane.
Open Female Sexual Issues
My husband and I have sexual issues and I wanted to join this community to see if others have the same difficulties.
Open Breakups & Divorce
I was divorced after 16 long years of marriage.
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Not Working
- Did not work, X unwilling to go after 1 visit.
- Leave Working / Worked
- Best thing I did.
- Talking Working / Worked
- It helps to talk with others who have had similar experiences.
Open Families & Friends of Gays & Lesbians
My brother was gay and died of AIDS in 2000. Missing him dearly.
Open Child Support & Custody
My husband and I have been paying support for 2 girls who don't even live with their mother. She has made the girls into liars. She has convinced them to hate us. We are in the process of trying to get one of the girls emancipated, she is 18 and was expelled from school, which terminates support.
Open Alcoholism
My husband is an alcoholic. I knew that he drank (beer) but I discovered 50+ empty, part full, full bottles of vodka hidden down the basement. He has been having blackouts for quite a while, and I couldn't figure out how he was having them only on a few beers. He would get extremely mean during these blackouts, smashing things, screaming at me, throwing things, etc... When I found all the bottles, I told him he had to go to AA or I was moving out. He started around the middle of December.
Treatments
- Al-Anon Too Soon to Tell
Open Families & Friends Of Addicts
I didn't know my husband was supplimenting his beer with vodka until recently. He had been having black-outs and got really MEAN. I discovered all the bottles and told him he had to go to AA. I have been in Al-Anon for only a month now. I have gone to 3 meetings per week. I can't seem to find a sponser and feel like I'm an outsider looking in.
Treatments
- Al-Anon Too Soon to Tell
- I don't feel connected to anyone.
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