Hi. My name is Emma . I'm not sure what else to say about myself really. I really love sport and music. I make bad decisions and always seem to be the one who pays the biggest price. I've lost a lot of important people in my life. I value the ones I have left; but they don't seem to value me. I want to like myself more but as Kauffman would say "I'm just a fucked-up girl who's lookin' for my own peace of mind; don't assign me yours."
Hi. My name is Emma . I'm not sure what else to say about myself really. I really love sport and music. I make bad decisions and always seem to be the one who pays the biggest price. I've lost a lot of important people in my life. I value the ones I have left; but they don't seem to value me. I want to like myself more but as Kauffman would say "I'm just a fucked-up girl who's lookin' for my own peace of mind; don't assign me yours."
Film, football, tennis, music - being better.
Film, football, tennis, music - being better.
September 24, 2009 9:11am
Sorry I haven't been on here for while
I have been quite unwell emotionally and have been unable to express myself.
I took the …
August 17, 2009 11:07am
I have enrolled on a creative sewing class.......should be fun!
August 4, 2009 11:52am
Been away from here for a while for various reason.
Been in touch with doctors and referred to Psych since I last wrote.
Will explain more …
July 15, 2009 8:47am
Yesterday some of you wrote some really sweet and supportive messages in my hug book and in my journal.
Unfortunately, I have to admit I have …
How are you? I haven't seen you on here in a while. Hope all is well.
Hey great to hear from you, well I wouldnt say a breakthrough because you cant just change a lifetime of bad feelings, feelings ugly but i do feel im beginning to feel better. Its a long way to go but the little things im doing are working. How are you? Hope you are ok hun.....
what's up, emma?
Nothing really. Just the same old. How about you? Do you have anything new going on?
I lost my boyfriend in 2005 and still feel the pain and guilt associated with that loss.
I have always been a worrying kind of person and have always had physical reactions tosocial discomfort and situation like bereavement. Since I suffered two major bereavements in 2004/05 my reactions and ability to control my feelings have become unmanagable. I have been known to make myself sleep, cry, vomit whilst waiting for feelings of great discomfort and anxiety to subside. I have been offered medication for depression before but have chosen to go down this root.
When I was 7 a short term family friend tried to sexually asault me and get e to do things to him. It was a one-off experience and with no penetration. Ever since I have found trusting men and the idea of sexual activity mostly uncomfortable and dirty. It also caused problems as family members fell out. I wish I ad just kept quiet.
I go through periods high anixety and great stress that lead to periods of imsomnia. In response, the more sleep deprivation I experience, the more I sturglle with imsomnia. My brain is impossibel to shut down and emtionally draining.
I have recently begun to have serious problems with my diet. I feel ill regularly when I eat and have been hyper aware of my weight. I always hated my body, but have never felt badly before. I am watching my mum struggle with her own eating disorder that saw here drop to 6 stone over Christmas and have been having relationship problems. I am not claiming to be anywhere like as ill as many people here - but I am concerned at how quickly my mum began to struggle with her weight.
