Journal Entry for June 5, 2008
just a bit i cant stand the feeling of emptyness i get quite a bit just dont want to get going and doing things i know i wont do it but i just want …
just a bit i cant stand the feeling of emptyness i get quite a bit just dont want to get going and doing things i know i wont do it but i just want …
just a bit i cant stand the feeling of emptyness i get quite a bit just dont want to get going and doing things i know i wont do it but i just want …
i am now back getting the help i neeed its hard when your own phycoligest has a break down and cant help you i guess i started to become a hermit …
random hug hope u r well
hi my friend i am not doing so well but hanging in here taking it one minute second minute at a time.
Thank you for your message, It,s been one of those days when nothing goes to plan,so i,m sat by myself [i do that alot,i come upto my room and have "ME" time] i just can,t sit still which annoys my husband,ah well life goes on,thank,s for the message back atcha love shaz x
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Hi Bernie, I wanted to thank you for your advice,i know i shouldn,t hurt myself but sometimes i can,t seem to get past,right now i am in hospital awaiting surgery to remove half [i hope only half!] of my kidney,i have also been taken off the trasplant programme because of the chemo and my already knackered only kidney,of all the cancers you can get i get it in my only kidney! thats the way my luck is! i had to tell the nurses about my abuse because i will not allow anyone and i mean anyone near the area they abused,so when i get myself all het up, instead of screaming and crying i cut myself,thats how i learned to control the pain of what them lot did to not just my body but also my soul,i,d be a liar if i told you i,m ok because in truth i,m not ok and the only way i can control it is by cutting myself sadly i can,t seem to get past what has happened to me,my councellor told me it.s because of the way i was treated by them pondlife scumbags! my husband and i no longer have any cuddles and hugs because of the way them slimeballs took away not only my dignity but also a piece of my soul,it,s the only way i can control my inner pain if you know what i mean? I sincerely hope you are fairing better than i am!!! take care my friend shaz x