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jesse59 
I am starting the SSI process. Jack told me to start in his last email update. A very daunting process to say the least. It seems I will need another lawyer for this process. They get you coming and going. Thankfully, the one good thing about another pain group I found in Yahoo Groups, they have an excellent section on SSI. I think it would be great for this group, but I am not sure who to contact. Maybe they will see this and ask. Anyone who wants the link I will be happy to forward it to them.
Another crap weekend. It was sunny and nice, but I laid on the couch the whole weekend. Sunday was especially bad. Another 3rd patch day. (When I see the doc this Friday I will lobby for only wearing it 2 days.) I called my mother early, around 10:00 in the morning. I was laying on the couch waiting for the 5 Norco’s to kick in. My morning pills, which are supposed to help with pain, didn’t do anything. I take Cymbalta, Gabapentin, and some other drug with an exhaustingly long name. I have seen in some posts that people take huge amounts of Gabapentin, or it’s other name, Nurontin. I will ask my doc to increase mine too, as I only take 900mg daily. It does help with the nerve endings firing on my leg. Before I took this it felt like things were crawling under my skin in my right thigh. Anyway, when I spoke to my mother, she was happy for the call and happy that I am coming home. I can’t wait to move back to a small town. Chicago, and it’s never ending suburbs, is no place for a country boy. 24 years here and I haven’t gone into Chicago more then 20 times. Those huge buildings seem to press me in and freak me out. And I really miss seeing stars at night. Up here, you can only see a handful thru all the city glare. Back home the sky explodes with stars. They seem so close, like you could reach out and touch them. Whoever once said, “You can’t go home again.”, can kiss my ass. LOL.
I have to apply to a bunch of job leads today, from my vocational jailer. This guy is a trip. On the first meeting, I think I said earlier, threatened me by saying he had a person who, when applying, said “You don’t want to hire me, I’m on workman’s comp.” I don’t see how you could take that any other way but as a threat. Well, this time, he called on Friday in the late afternoon. He wanted to meet today at the college. I asked if we could meet closer to my home, like at a mall a few blocks away. He said he wanted to copy some job postings they have on a wall there. Even when I informed him that they were just print outs from a web site and gave him the link, he still pushed for the college. I told him that the time he wanted was bad because my wife works 2nd shift. He asked if I was “refusing” to drive there. (My doc wrote no driving on my MMI but now they are contesting that.) What an ass. I wrote him an email earlier canceling and told him I wasn’t refusing to drive but that since I hadn’t received a check in 5 weeks, I no longer have a 2nd car to drive. Which is true, we had to sell it. I will wait to see how that goes over.
Well, my new patch and 3 Norcos are starting to work. I am going to start sending out applications and go back to the SSI website. More later.
Another crap weekend. It was sunny and nice, but I laid on the couch the whole weekend. Sunday was especially bad. Another 3rd patch day. (When I see the doc this Friday I will lobby for only wearing it 2 days.) I called my mother early, around 10:00 in the morning. I was laying on the couch waiting for the 5 Norco’s to kick in. My morning pills, which are supposed to help with pain, didn’t do anything. I take Cymbalta, Gabapentin, and some other drug with an exhaustingly long name. I have seen in some posts that people take huge amounts of Gabapentin, or it’s other name, Nurontin. I will ask my doc to increase mine too, as I only take 900mg daily. It does help with the nerve endings firing on my leg. Before I took this it felt like things were crawling under my skin in my right thigh. Anyway, when I spoke to my mother, she was happy for the call and happy that I am coming home. I can’t wait to move back to a small town. Chicago, and it’s never ending suburbs, is no place for a country boy. 24 years here and I haven’t gone into Chicago more then 20 times. Those huge buildings seem to press me in and freak me out. And I really miss seeing stars at night. Up here, you can only see a handful thru all the city glare. Back home the sky explodes with stars. They seem so close, like you could reach out and touch them. Whoever once said, “You can’t go home again.”, can kiss my ass. LOL.
I have to apply to a bunch of job leads today, from my vocational jailer. This guy is a trip. On the first meeting, I think I said earlier, threatened me by saying he had a person who, when applying, said “You don’t want to hire me, I’m on workman’s comp.” I don’t see how you could take that any other way but as a threat. Well, this time, he called on Friday in the late afternoon. He wanted to meet today at the college. I asked if we could meet closer to my home, like at a mall a few blocks away. He said he wanted to copy some job postings they have on a wall there. Even when I informed him that they were just print outs from a web site and gave him the link, he still pushed for the college. I told him that the time he wanted was bad because my wife works 2nd shift. He asked if I was “refusing” to drive there. (My doc wrote no driving on my MMI but now they are contesting that.) What an ass. I wrote him an email earlier canceling and told him I wasn’t refusing to drive but that since I hadn’t received a check in 5 weeks, I no longer have a 2nd car to drive. Which is true, we had to sell it. I will wait to see how that goes over.
Well, my new patch and 3 Norcos are starting to work. I am going to start sending out applications and go back to the SSI website. More later.
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good luck jesse. lots of love...........debbie
dkpape
Don't you just love workers comp. Yea right. They are the crookedest assholes in the world. All they think of is getting you off their files. They try every trick in the book to make you do things you are incapable of. My husband was receiving checks from wc for a while after his injury and then they stopped. He had been overpaid and had to pay back the overpayment.
Sounds like your pain doc. isn't understanding of the pain you are having and is reluctant to give the meds you need. Maybe he is afraid of the govt. regulations. Who knows. How is it possible to know the pain you are in unless the doc. has chronic pain himself? In the first ten years of my husbands accident he went through 27 different doctors and all were not worth their salt.
I really think chronic pain is so misunderstood that even the doctors sometimes question the amount of pain you are in. This is so sad, and they should not be afraid to give the meds that will increase the quality of life for patients that truly need the help. People w/o pain don't understand how debilitating this is and furthermore don't care.
This really makes my blood boil!!
Why are they asking you to apply for jobs when you can't even function with the day to day activities of just getting through the day? Are they blind? No...They don't care either. All they want is to get you off the payroll. I (if it were me) would tell every employer that I have a bad back and that I can't sit or stand for very long at a time. They won't hire you. Play the same game that w/c is playing with you. Use the old adage "Two can play this game".
Sorry to hear about the patches not working. They didn't work for my husband either. He has taken so much meds. that his teeth have become soft and are breaking off. But, nobody will recognize that as a side effect of the meds. either. I know this fight is so frustrating and even more so when you are in pain all the time.
I don't know which is worse, fighting the pain, dealing with the docs that don't care or assholes like W/C.
Take care jesse59 and I'll say a prayer for you.
Maybe this won't mean as much since I don't suffer with constant pain as you and others do but I do understand the fight for what is right.
Omie