starflower's Journal

You do NOT have permission from me or the court to monitor private journal entries, private conversations, nor private emails that I write.  The last I checked, I still have my first amendment right to write whatever I choose to write and it remains private unless I give you permission to read it or give you passwords to access it.  I will continue to write my thoughts, feelings, and perceptions on this site and any other I choose to use, but I am smart enough to make it private.  You only read what I wanted you to read.  Besides, I have absolutely nothing to hide.  I am seeking medical care for an injury at work and I am legally entitled to that medical care. 

I do not work.  I am disabled by SS and have been since 1998.  SS does not disable someone who is capable of working.  It is not an easy task to gain approval to become disabled.  It took me two years of fighting with them, but I was approved and remain approved.  W/C has NO interest in whether or not I work, because they are not paying lost wages.  W/C is simply responsible for lifetime medical benefits for the injury and the disorders that the injury caused.  You can continue to try to scare me by threatening me with pre-existing conditions, but you can forget that.  First, I was perfectly healthy when I was injured and was working two jobs, enrolled in school and taking care of my children and our home.  After my injury I was unable to do any of those things. 

I am being treated for fibromyalgia and myofascial pain disorder.  I had never even heard of either of these prior to my diagnosis 8 months after my injury.  You have paid for care for those two conditions for 16 years and now you think you can get out of it.  Even if I did have a pre-existing condition, the VA code states that you are responsible for any illness or injury that occurs at work that flares up or worsens a pre-existing condition. 

I am not sure who told you I would, should, or could get better with these diagnoses.  It is well known fact that there is no cure for fibro or myofascial pain and the one treatment that could help me has been denied.  The goal of treatment is to keep my pain levels down to a manageable level and to keep me as functional as possible.  Come video tape me on a day when I can't move because I did too much the day or two before.  Come look at my house and how I can't keep up with cleaning it the way I did before this injury. 

So keep thinking you will find me doing something that proves I don't hurt or that I don't need the care.  People don't fake pain for 16 years and have over 20 practioners agree that you are pain, if you are faking.  I would love to come off some of my meds and decrease my therapy, but not until someone finds a way to decrease my pain. 

Keep snooping, this is the only entry that will be public!