sharktooflady's Journal

Well, been a while old friend. Rainy tonite, hurting of course. A bit anxious over the up-coming surgery next Wed. Dreading mostly.

Had a great weekend with my old buddy Spyder and his wife. Did not think it was possible to physically connect to someone over the internet. It happened, and much to my delight, I feel hubby & I have found a couple of  "for-the-long-haul" friends.

We had the best time at Carolina Beach. fossil hunting in the quarry, eating out at different restaurants every meal. Visiting the local Watering holes and having a beer.

Went to this one place, "The Fat Pelican". Been there since 1986. You go into their large refrigiated cooler and pick out what ever beer ya want. They have stuff I've never imagained. Around 400 different beers. They will pop your top & give you a pen to write on their walls, vintage stuff, floors, whatever. Really cool place.

Life is so-so right now. What is it when your kids are having struggles/hurting, you have them as well. It's like if they are not happy, centered, successful, then you are not as well. Must be that maternal thing going on. If they are not happy, momma's not happy.lol

So many struggles these days. My heart goes out to the world. China's quake, USA tornados, Mu----- cyclone. Angelina having twins with my man Brad. So much turmoil.

I say this because of the hyper-sensitive  beings we fibro sufferers are. To much stimulus always sends me into overload. Thank God I believe in him. He is the only reason I've not self-destructed by my own hand.

There was a time where I felt un-worth. Felt like God did not know my name, actually verbalized that to a friend. Went to a church, un-announced, and He told me thru the minister, at the end of the service.  Minister looked me square in the eye and said; "You know God knows who you are, he knows your name & he loves you". You want to talk about blown away! That is my most profound God Moment & will never forget it.

God leads my Life & I'm glad of it. I'm not a holy-roller. Not a bible-toting, holier-than-thou, in church every minute. I'm merely God's child. I acknowledge him & he annoints me. Can go to a beautiful tree & talk with him as easily as in a synagouge/temple.   He is most accessible. Better than the internet, guys let me tell

 you.

So, need to go & snuggle with my puppies & lay this tired body down. Not sure I care who reads this. Take from it what you will.  It's my journal anyways.

If there is anyone who may happen upon this & read, will you say a prayer, request, chant, etc. that this impending surgery may give me some relief?

Goodnite Molly, goodnite Sadie, I luv u my pups.