Journal Entry for February 21, 2007
February 21, 2007 11:57pm
Wednesay-10:40pm. Been a pretty good day. Work went by fast and no major problems, that was a plus. Im taking Balints advice and trying to force …
Sandy30
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About Me
Sandy30
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About Me
Work a lot, want to go back to school but scared.
Work a lot, want to go back to school but scared.
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Interests
Right now..counseling, group meeting once a week. Playing with my best bud Brandon, age 4.
Right now..counseling, group meeting once a week. Playing with my best bud Brandon, age 4.
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Journal Entry for February 20, 2007
February 20, 2007 2:00am
Tuesday-12:40am. I feel like I have been missing for a week. I had been awake too long and let too much shit crowd my mind. Its still there but I …
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Journal Entry for February 19, 2007
February 19, 2007 1:23am
Monday-12:10am. I have come to the conclusion that Im just fucked up in the head and Im never going to get right again. Ive been really trying to …
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Journal Entry for February 17, 2007
February 17, 2007 5:50am
Saturday-4:40am....Went to sleep around 8pm last night, back up at 2am. Not too bad. Anything over 4 hours is a blessing to me. I saw my ex's aunt …
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Journal Entry for February 14, 2007
February 14, 2007 9:48pm
Today I actually feel good. I love the cold weather and I brought my little valentine (my 4 yr old nephew) a balloon and candy. Hes my main man at …
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you just gave an awesome answer on the post you can be such a help to others I think you are going to just go on to becoming an even greater person than you already are. Dont get angry at me I know i dont know you but that was an unbelievable response to that person, its an honor to know you
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just wondering how you're doing. hope to see you on here soon. - ange1ik.fruitcake
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hi.
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i hope ya dont mind me stoppin by just droppin in to say hi and let ya know that ure luvd by sendin ya a great bigg hugg! ---karen(sis)
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Sending some love to my friend :):)
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Support Groups
Close Self-Injury
Hi. My name is Sandy. I have been cutting myself since October 12 2005--one day after my daughter died at birth. I dont know why I did it. I felt hopeless, mad, guilty. I blamed myself and still do for losing her. I first cut myself on impulse. I couldnt sleep. I felt relief. But only for a little while. I go to therapy. But sometimes I get to that point, 2 am, hopeless, crying, blaming. Back to the first time...and I do it again.
Treatments
- Effexor Somewhat Helpful
- Kind of stabilizes my depression, which in turn helps to not cut. As much.
- BuSpar Not Working
- Has not worked. Makes me feel light headed and I space out. I also shake and feel light shocks in my arms and legs.
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- I go to counseling for an abusive relationship. I talk to her about the cutting. Not sure if its going to help yet. I hope so.
- Lexapro Not Working
- I took it for 1 week, then started having suicidal thoughts.
- Clonazepam Working / Worked
- Working good. I dont take it every day. Just when I start feeling fidgety and it calms me way down and mellows me out. I lose the desire to cut.
Close Physical & Emotional Abuse
My name is Sandy. I met and fell in love with the man of my dreams almost 4 years ago. We moved in together right away. Reality hit me in the face--literally. I have been away since June. Im scared. I have no self esteem, or any idea what to do with myself, but Im free. Hopefully forever.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionIve always had depression, but it worsened in 2001, when my mom was discovered to have cancer and it was too late to save her. The depression has grown, filling me, taking over and spilling over into every aspect of my life.
Treatments
- Effexor Working / Worked
- seems to be working with my new increased dose of 600mg.
- Lexapro Not Working
- Did not work. Made me much worse, and irrational.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- seems to help. I look forward to it every week.
Open Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS)
Diagnosed with PCOS at around 20yrs old. Havent really been treated for it. Lost my daughter in Oct 2005 at almost 7 mths pregnant.
