Reasons to celebrate and be Happy
September 30, 2008 12:43pm
This isn't so much a gratitude as a reminder of the fact that there are things in my life now that spark that feeling of passion down deep in my …
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ConcreteAngel
2:09pm, September 29, 2008
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About Me
ConcreteAngel
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About Me
I am a 47 year old Mom of 4 grown daughters and Grandmom to 3 Granddaughters whom I never get to see.Life has been a series of ups and downs and I'm actively searching for a way to create more ups and less downs. I also do dumb things sometimes that sabotage my future and I intend to stop doing that.
I am a 47 year old Mom of 4 grown daughters and Grandmom to 3 Granddaughters whom I never get to see.Life has been a series of ups and downs and I'm actively searching for a way to create more ups and less downs. I also do dumb things sometimes that sabotage my future and I intend to stop doing that.
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Interests
I have many hobbies however there are few of which I'm able to pursue and enjoy. Some of those are, Music, reading, the internet. Would like to learn to draw and paint and also start taking guitar lessons again but it's kind of incompatible with growing my nails long which I like. I used to bite them but now they just break.
I have many hobbies however there are few of which I'm able to pursue and enjoy. Some of those are, Music,
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Quick update and a few random thoughts
September 29, 2008 2:26pm
I felt I needed to take a few minutes to write some things that hopfully will help me sort this out in my mind and in my heart.
First of all, I …
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Dammit I need to be doing homework but I need to write this
September 24, 2008 7:58pm
Okay here are things he did/said to me. I am going to try to remember everything I can. I will at least list the things that made me feel the …
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A few revelations that just occurred to me
September 24, 2008 7:27pm
Dammit he hurt me over and over again even after I got out of the truck then stupidly got back in it with him...not Once, not Twice but Three times. …
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where you at? you were right about HER!! shes a whack job!!!
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are you okay?
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You have 24 hours to respond to this email. If you don't. I am calling the police to report you missing. I have not heard from you. You have not called or attempted any contact which is highly unusual. I am worried you are murdered by that person you were supposed to meet. (for anyone else reading this please contact me if you hear from here. This is her room mate. She was supposed to be back over a week ago.)
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Just wanted to send You Big Hugs to let You know I'm here for You. Hope Things are going much better for You. I've been adjusting, and dealing with Live Alone again now. It's been an adjustment, but I know it's of course MUCH better than being Abused.
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Close Breakups & Divorce
I was/am still married but separated from a verbally and emotionally abusive husband. The reason I left (finally) was that he threatened to BASH my daughters head in and refused to go to marriage counseling. Now I'm wondering where to go from here. I have NO social life, no job and arthritis in my spine so needless to say, this is not the best time in my life but I am SOOOOO relieved to be away from him. It's just really difficult rebuilding a life of my own.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- My problem was I was the one in counseling and therapy and HE was the one with the real issues.
- Support from Friends & Family Too Soon to Tell
- Nobody really understands how much pain I am in and I think they're sick of seeing me cry.
- Time Too Soon to Tell
- I'm not sure any amount of time can ever heal the amount of damage my husband has done to my soul.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- The sound of the waves calms me & helps me focus but I may have to move to CA. and although there are beaches there, I'd be staying with a friend who lives in the desert.
- Abuse Counseling Not Working
- I spent way too long apologizing for my feelings. Each session with the counselor makes me feel worse. If I need to cry, I'll cry and I was told not to wallow in it
- Laughter Somewhat Helpful
- I have a roommate who has a great sense of humor. I can be crying one minute and laughing the next minute because he's said something funny. I just wish he was funny 24 hours a day cause when he stops joking around, the tears come back.
Close Physical & Emotional Abuse
Have been married to a verbal and emotional abuser for 10 years. I left him in April of 2007 and am trying to go on with my life but some days, I feel like I'm going backward instead of forward. 2008 Update. I have been through hell since I left my abuser but it was still worth it. It's been a little over a year and I just now am able to think about him without that ache in my heart.
Treatments
- Abuse Counseling Not Working
- Quit going because the counselor became pretty heartless. Going to try again in California.
- Leave Working / Worked
- Really hard to do and stay gone but at least he can't yell at me anymore and my daughter is safe. Side effects are poverty and having to kiss someones ass to eat.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Somewhat helpful unless a song comes on that reminds me of him.
Open Anxiety
Hi, my name is Jennifer and I have a low stress tolerance. When my stress levels become too high, anxiety and sometimes depression result. I have had problems as far back as I can remember.
Treatments
- Ativan Somewhat Helpful
- It's one of many prescriptions I have used to bring the anxiety under control.
- Inderal Working / Worked
- So far, this med seems to be working better than anything else I've taken and I am very surprise because I've tried EVERYTHING to get control of this horrible anxiety. So far, the only side effect I noticed was a slight amount of sleepiness the first couple of days. It's not a miracle cure though as I can still feel the effects of stress but I haven't had an anxiety attack since I started taking it about a week ago.
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- I find this medication to be the most effective at stopping an Anxiety attack and the quicker I take it when I feel an attack coming on, the better it works although I've had to take one right after the other when the attacks have been very severe.
- Lexapro Too Soon to Tell
- I was given samples of Lexapro recently but only took it for two days because I am a commercial driver who was looking for work and I couldn't take it and drive for a living. Also, I had side effects of pretty severe nausea and drowsiness. I also didn't like the fact that once my body got used to it, I couldn't just stop taking it.
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- I've really had to work at this one and sometimes it helps and sometimes it doesn't. It depends on what triggers the anxiety and how severe it is.
- Valium Working / Worked
- It seems to be somewhat effective but still isn't a cure.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- I haven't taken Xanax for a while but again, it's one of the meds I've been prescribed.
- Zoloft Not Working
- Another of the thousand meds I've been prescribed. Can't remember if there were any side effects.
Open Homelessness
Hello everyone. I am staying with a friend and will be paying rent ($200 a month) but it's a very uncomfortable living situation because of my roommates nephew AND I am sleeping on the couch. I would give anything to have my own apartment but can't afford to live on my own and pay utilities and buy food. I also do not own a car and have to rely on my friend to get me back and forth to work. I am 48 and have 4 grown daughters who live on the other side of the country.
Open Career Changes
I am going back to school and want to do Web Design. I will be graduating in 2010 and will be doing a job search then.
Open ADHD / ADD
48 year old woman as yet undiagnosed. Have been told I am "bright" but consistently got comments on report cards in elementary school saying things like "not working at full potential". I frequently find that I will have 20 or 30 open windows when online and am currenty "trying" to attend an online college but have given up this semester due to multiple missing assignments. Feel very guilty like I should be able to do this but I realize it's not my fault. Need to get diagnosed NOW and get meds.
